Every night when I say goodnight to you, I sit in my bed thinking how lucky I really am to have you. I fell in love with you ridiculously fast, and I know you can say the same. A lot of people will judge us for the decisions we've made, but I know deep down we both have made them out of love. True love.
A lot would say it's crazy that I went to meet your family and spend Christmas and New Year's Day with them for three weeks (out of town) after we were dating for just two. I was scared something bad would happen during it, but really it just strengthened my love and appreciation of you. I found a family in your family. I grew so much closer to you. It was during those three weeks that I became confident you were the one I've been looking for my whole life. My end game.
I've gone through multiple heartbreaks, specifically last year, that tore down my perception of love. It made me question if love really does exist or if it's just an endless game of getting close to someone just for it to all be torn apart in the matter of time. The idea of love became really delicate to me. Those heartbreaks also tore me down as a whole. I lost my sense of worth, resulting in some bad decisions. I lost myself in a 2-year abusive relationship, a relationship where I was solely being used, one I had no confidence in, and one that was a "getaway car" as Taylor Swift would put it. Those times were painful, and it was hard to re-find love for myself, but now that I have you I know that it was all worth it. Not only did I find more love for myself, I found you and you continuously make me feel more confident day in and day out. You show me that I'm worth more than boys that don't care and boys that say they love me then turn around and mess around with a different girl.
You tell me multiple times a day that I'm beautiful and gorgeous, and I'm slowly but surely starting to believe you. I'm starting to love me as a whole. You become speechless when I sing and compliment me on it—which is something that has boosted my confidence back up after it was torn down years ago. You answer your phone every time I call, and you are never annoyed that I'm calling. You're willing to spend your days off of work with me with no complaint. You're willing to spend the rest of your life with me, and I'm prepared to do so.
Your smile makes me smile no matter the mood I'm in. I'm in love with that smile. You know how to make me laugh, whether it's with a vine reference, teasing me about little things, or just being your goofy self. You are such a unique man, and I hope that never changes. Your little quirks make me fall in love with you more each day. Call it what you want, but I know what I feel is love and only love.
It's definitely difficult dating military, especially what you do in the army because I know there will be times you'll be away for long periods of time—whether for training or deployment—but I can promise you that I will stick by you through it all. It will be hard at times, but I know in the end we'll only become stronger. I'll be waiting patiently for you to come home and I'll be there waiting on the day of your arrival with a big hug, lots of kisses, and probably a cringy yet cute sign. Honestly, I once swore I'd never date or marry military but look what you made me do. But hey, don't blame me, I didn't know how special this kind of relationship could turn out to be.
I am so in love with you and so thankful that you're in my life. I'm excited for what is to come this year with you by my side. You are the greatest man to exist in my life and I know that I'll be lucky enough to have you by my side for the rest of our lives. One day I'll be wearing that white dress walking down the aisle to you. You're the true king of my heart.
Love yours truly,
Abbey