Recently, I’ve been trying to not only find myself, but also try to figure myself out. I am still very young, both mentally and physically. I have a lot of love to give and although it may not always seem like that, please understand I have a lot of layers, so give me a chance.
This is for the people in my life; past, present and future.
1. My personality
I am so sorry for me sometimes. I am such a confusing person to be around. I seem really reserved and I'm not very open when you first get to know me. I keep to myself all the time but once you get to know me, I'm so open and fun to be around. It takes me a while to warm up to people but if I haven't yet, please give me time, don't just walk away from me.
2. My language
Sometimes, I don't speak the way people want me to. Maybe I'll be too angry or maybe I'll say something that might upset you a bit. A lot of the time, though, it sounds like I'm speaking with much more emphasis than I really am. Maybe I'll say something that sounds way ruder than I thought it would or maybe what I said came out wrong and isn't exactly what I meant to say. Literally everyone makes mistakes when they're talking and it isn't fair to hold it against me. If I said something that offends you, talk to me about it. Keeping it inside is going to leave me confused as to why you're upset about what I said.
3. My “negativity”
If I had a penny for every time someone called me negative, I would probably be rich. One thing I think everybody should understand is, even though I have a lot of negative things going on, that doesn't make me negative. Just because I confide in you when I'm talking about things that upset me, doesn't make me negative. If I can't talk to you about the things that upset me without you making me feel bad, then don't tell me you're there for me. Along with that, if you'll make me feel bad for feeling crappy, just stop being my friend or end it before it even begins.
4. My “mood swings”
If you think that I have mood swings, you're rude, but besides that, I don't. I feel what comes to me day by day. Sometimes a day will go amazing and I will have no complaints. But on other days, something bad happens and I feel really sad. Is that your fault? No, but it's not fair that I don't get to express my feelings.
5. The love I have to give
I love a lot and I love hard, so if I'm friends with you, it's for good reason. If you write me off, then that's your loss. I love you and I hope you'll give me the same love back.