So I don’t know about any of you, but I am one of two kids in my family, and the oldest of the two meaning I’m the first to go through the big bad scary high school, SATs, college applications and of course actually go to college. While I struggled through all of the new beginnings along with my parents adjusting to it all for the first time, my younger sister was pretty much just along for the ride. It wasn’t yet her turn to worry about all of this, and once it was time to start thinking about all of this nonsense it was our family’s second go at it all, so it didn’t seem like as big of a deal or as scary and new.

But now it’s starting to hit me; things will never be the same. I was so excited to come home from college in May and be here to experience all of the excitement in her life. Prom, graduation, going on random adventures because high school was now “overrated” and apparently didn’t matter anymore (I wasn’t opposed to this since it meant more time I got to spend with my sister). Not to mention these events truly made me feel old and "washed-up" as they say, sitting at graduation with friends who I finished high school with already two years before, but feels like just yesterday. These were some of the best memories we’ve had in a while and I’m so appreciative of that, just beginning to have a hard time believing that my little sister is about to go experience bigger and better things, without me by her side. It also doesn’t help that she is currently spending yet another summer away at camp and I had to make the difficult decision to refrain myself from having another carefree summer in the sun and get an internship.

So I guess all I can do now is look forward to our future visits and hope that we’ll be together again next summer. She’ll be home in a few weeks for a little while, so looks like we’ll be making the best of beach days, adventures, happy hours (of course) and any other random things we find ourselves doing. It still makes me feel slightly nauseous thinking that we won’t be living at home for long periods of time together anytime soon, but I guess I’ll just have to make myself at home in her dorm room in the fall.