To My Guardian Angel Mom For Mother's Day

To My Guardian Angel On Mother's Day

Mom- I miss you everyday.

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Mom,

I miss you everyday. The past six months without you have been some of the hardest, but I know you are with me, watching over me, every step of the way.

I am so lucky and grateful to be surrounded by wonderful people who support me and love me on the days when I need it most. I have the best friends in the world. Mom, I wish you could have met them. You would have loved them.

I miss our hour long phone calls, and two hour phone calls when I was missing home a little more than usual, or when I just had too much gossip to spill to you. I can still hear your voice when you'd pick up the phone, greeting me in the exact same endearing way every time. I miss laughing with you.

Things without you are so different, and I am not sure if I will ever stop being so painfully aware of that difference.

This time last year, we were heading out to the Hamptons to have a combo celebration for your birthday and Mother's Day, just like always. Your May 11 birthday always walks right alongside Mother's Day, and I always thought the universe did that on purpose. You were the best mother I could have asked for, and my best friend.

This year, May 11 and Mother's Day are painfully quiet. Any other year, we would have filled the house with pink roses and lilies- your favorites. It would have smelled like Easter. This year I will be very much missing your lilies.

It frustrates me beyond belief when the people around me complain about their moms. Maybe I should be more understanding, but I do not think they realize how lucky they are. As much as we fought, and disagreed, and had our bad days, you were my best friend and life without you is lonely in the worst way. And as much as everyone fights, and disagrees, and has their bad days with their own mothers, they are so lucky. I mean, so lucky, to have their mothers. Nobody should take that for granted, and nobody should forget how fortunate they are and I just wish they could truly understand and remember that.

Most pain is temporary, but I believe this pain is not. It is something I will probably carry for the rest of my life, but I am strangely okay with that because it keeps you here in a way. I find you in the little things- songs by P!nk that come on for no reason, the colorful bird that sits outside my window, alone, but content, my friends slipping silly words into their sentences that I never heard anyone use except for you.

You are all around me, always. I know you are.

This year, I am grateful for you in a new way, because I have to be grateful in a new way. I am grateful to have had nearly 20 years to share with you. I am grateful that you made me into the person I am today. I am grateful to have you running through my veins, because you were strong, and brave, and beautiful.

I am grateful to be a part of you, and you a part of me.

I am grateful to be your daughter, and I am grateful to have known you and loved you. I am so, so grateful.

To my guardian angel on Mother's Day: I love you. Thank you.

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51 Reasons Why I Love My Mom

In honor of my role model.
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In honor of it almost being time for me to go back to school, I wanted to express to you my appreciation and love for you and all that you do for me.

1. You always support me.

2. You help deter me from bad decisions.

3. You teach me that making mistakes is OK.

4. You always find the good in people.

5. You're the most sociable woman I know.

6. You teach me patience.

7. You show me caring.

8. You teach me to love myself.

9. You're strong.

10. You're brave beyond compare.

11. You're independent.

12. You light up every room you walk into.

13. You're honest.

14. You never hold a grudge.

15. You make me laugh.

16. You light your dorm room on fire by accident.

17. You're humble.

18. You're selfless.

19. You never judge others.

20. You love Snoopy.

21. You taught me compassion.

22. You never kvetch.

23. You know how to make your own happiness.

24. You're self-made.

25. You make the lives of everyone you touch happier.

26. You give me a kick in the ass when I need it.

27. You're calm and composed.

28. You show me how to be the best version of myself.

29. You always pick me up when I'm down.

30. You have no hatred toward any living or dead thing.

31. You have a great taste in music.

32. Sometimes you sing like Kermit the Frog.

33. You can always laugh at yourself.

34. You have trouble ordering Chinese food on the phone, like I do.

35. You teach me humility.

36. You're intelligent.

37. You raised four amazing children.

38. You're always optimistic.

39. You're always poised.

40. You take your responsibilities very seriously.

41. You are not materialistic.

42. You have taught me the power of giving and receiving advice.

43. You make amazing cookies.

44. You find fascination in the little things.

45. You call me silly nicknames.

46. You're adventurous.

47. You find joy in all you do and see.

48. You're confident in the woman you've become.

49. You have a heart of gold.

50. You love me just the way I am (especially as your favorite child).

51. You love me unconditionally, as I do you.

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A Thank You Letter To My Mom

For everything you've done for me, whether you knew it or not.

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Dear Mom,

As both Mother's Day and the end of my first year living away from home come to an end, I've realized the abundance of things that you've done for me that I have to be grateful for. While I can never truly put into words how thankful I am for everything that you've done for me, here's a few that come to mind.

Thank you for always listening to my problems.

And there's a LOT. You let me rant to you about everything and anything without judgement, and I know you're always genuinely concerned about whatever I'm going through. I never have to question whether you're still listening even after hours of talking, and I think I'd go insane without being able to talk to you!

Thank you for doing things you didn't want to do.

Whether it's going to the gym after a long day of work, going to get our nails done, or even going paddle boarding, you're always willing to try the things that I want to do. When I was a kid, you would always make sure that Maura and I had someone to practice our sports with or go on a bike ride with. Even now that we're older, I still I know I can always count on you to try a new restaurant with me or check out vacation spots to visit in the future.

Thank you for being so understanding.  

I definitely wasn't a perfect kid, and there have been some moments where I don't even know how to deal with myself. You never got mad at me over a bad test grade or sports performance, and that gave me the confidence to work my hardest without the fear of failure. That confidence not only got me through the years that I spent at home, but still carries through my work while I'm at school.

Thank you for teaching me how to be strong.

I have watched you face obstacles that I couldn't even imagine facing, and yet you did so with ease and always made sure to take care of Maura and I in the process. You never let the struggles you went through change your view on the world and still continued to remain positive throughout everything, and I try to maintain the same positivity in my life when times get tough.

Thank you for always advocating for me.

No matter what I am getting myself down over, you never fail to remind me of my strengths and how special they are. Whether it's an unfair teacher, a stupid boy, or an unkind friend, you remind me "not to let them rent space in my head" and remind me how precious my time really is. Even when it seems like the whole world is against me, I know I can always count on you to support me and give me the motivation to keep going.

Thank you for everything you have done for me, and all that I know you will continue to do. I love you so much!

Love,

Your Extraordinarily Grateful Daughter

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