First, I want to say how much that I am so thankful to have had you as a dog. You were not just my dog, but you were my best friend.
As many know, you were my baby. Nine years ago, in May of my fifth grade year, momma decided to make our family a little bigger and for that I am forever grateful.
I miss you.
I miss the sound of your pitter-patter as you would walk to your food bowl after every time I would take you out to go to the bathroom. I miss getting exciting news and running to you to tell you, even if you could not understand what I had to say. I miss venting to you when I would have bad days at school or when something was truly on my mind, when I felt like you were the only one that I could talk to. I just really miss you and wish I could turn back time and do things over again.
You did not deserve it.
You did not deserve the long nights of rolling over and not being able to sleep. You also did not deserve all of the seizures that would keep me and you both up all night, even if I had school the next day. I could be so exhausted from track practice and would still stay awake with you as you could not sleep. You did not deserve going blind, but I am sorry that I would have a chuckle here and there when you would run into something. I am really sorry that pugs have a lot of health issues, but I remained by your side through it all.
I really wish I could have seen you one last time.
Going to college last August, my biggest fear was losing you...and little did I know that I was not going to be able to see you again. I am really sorry for taking you to the grooming center that day, you did not deserve what happened to you. I am really thankful that I came home that next weekend because I felt like something bad was going to happen and then it did.
You made our home complete.
It has been a full year without you and I REALLY wish you were here. After you were dropped, I would call nanny every day just to ask how you were doing. Even though you were blind and made nanny almost fall a couple of times, the first few weeks after your death even nanny said that it felt weird not tripping over you in the kitchen.
Thank you for all of the fun memories.
Do you remember that time I panicked that I could not find you? So I finally sat down for breakfast to eat, after worrying, and I accidentally stepped on your foot for you to scream...you made me late for school that morning and I will never forget it. Thank you for always chasing Aunt Tammy and Cody around the house because you did not like them, I promise they miss you too. Thank you for always chasing after me in the yard and also being the excuse to go play out in the snow because you needed to go to the bathroom. I wish I could do all of those things over again.
You were not just a dog.
Everyone knew how much you meant to me and after you passed I felt the love in our community when they would check in to see if I was doing okay. People sent letters, ordered me cookies in college anonymously, called and texted me to make sure I was still being strong. I was told one evening that you were just a four legged animal, but you were not. You were my very best friend.
Thank you puggle for being one of the best things that has ever happened to me. One year later, I miss you more than you could ever imagine. I really hope doggy heaven is treating you well. I love you baby girl!