Dear Former Best Friend,

I still remember all our adventures, and I miss them dearly. I’m not mad about our friendship ending because, at the end of the day, we’re two totally different people. We both want different things with our lives, but I really hoped that we would conquer them together. There are several things that I really miss, but don’t have the heart to tell you. I miss the parked car conversations that always included an ice cream cone from McDonald’s and having someone to confide in because I don’t know if anyone else ever got to have those conversations with me. I miss having nicknames for each other and combining our names to make one. Finally, I really miss having a friendship so strong that other people questioned our sexuality because we held hands in public places so often.

I have high hopes for you though. I really hope you don’t forget any of the memories we made. I hope you don’t forget all the hotels we visited together for school trips, the inside jokes, and the ceaseless talk about how dumb boys can be (even though we each had our eyes on one anyway). I also hope that everything works out the way that you’ve planned. I desperately want you to succeed, because I see your full potential, even if you don’t sometimes. I will forever be on the sidelines watching you and checking your Twitter profile to make sure you’re okay. I want you to be so happy with your life, because you deserve it, even if I’m not a part of your life anymore. I want you to walk out your door with a smile on your face, and your soul feeling refreshed. I want what’s best for you, even if it’s not me right now.

I want you to know that I still want to call you and tell you all about how my life is going. All. Of. The. Time. It kind of sucks that I’m not able to do that because our friendship ended when you stopped answering my texts. And I know that sounds like a pathetic way to end a friendship, but I’m glad it wasn’t some sort of heart-breaking fight that did us in. Sadly, I still want you to know everything about me like you used to.

Maybe it is true in that if you love someone to let them go, and if they love you, they’ll come back. But sometimes you just have to let people go and see where life takes them. Or, maybe we’ll come together and find one another again after some time has passed. I don’t know if we both needed to grow up a little, but I hope that I’ll hear from you again. In the meantime, thanks for all of the memories, even if remembering them makes me feel squeamish inside and very blue. Anyways, thank you for everything and for making my last few years of high school the very best. I love you lots.

- The girl who misses you.