Dear former BFF,
I can't believe that this is where we landed. Our friendship was perfectly fine, until it suddenly fell and shattered on the ground. To this day, my heart will always ache for who we were, because you were the best friend I ever had.
I never wanted this to happen.
You were the type of person who would take someone under your wing and take care of them, because your heart was the biggest. You had so much enthusiasm about everything, and you were always willing to go on an adventure and try something new. You supported the people you loved. All of this stood out to me, because that's exactly who I am. We were so alike, it was almost impossible.
High school saw some better days. As simple as cross country was, it brought us together and made us best friends in a matter of hours. I have never clicked with somebody that quickly. We barely even fought, too. Not one argument ever led us to turmoil. Some fights would be stupid and we'd forget about it the next day, but nothing worse happened between us. Through our proms, extra curricular activities, and graduation, we were attached at the hip. I would call you "the sister I never had".
We were kids then, we didn't know what was about to come.
I ignored the warnings and red flags about rooming with your BFF during college. I was told it'd be a bad idea. But why would it be? We get along, right?
Wrong.
I was disappointed, at the very least. We fell apart, and we weren't who we were. I blamed you for changing, but I changed too. We suddenly had different interests, we became bitter with one another, and we met new people. And it was hard to accept that, but it was true. I know that now.
College saw worse days. We'd ignore each other, and say things we didn't mean. I was angry and annoyed, and I wished things had gotten better. Things escalated to the ugliest level, and my heart was basically broken into a thousand pieces. I knew that I wouldn't find another friend like you. We gelled together, almost as easy as we broke away from one another.
All girls dream of having a best friend that's similar to a sister. I thought I had mine set in stone forever. We had promised we would be there for each other's wedding and when each of us had kids. I picked you to be my maid of honor and the godmother for one of my children. We always had that planned, it was so typical.
2 years later from our unfortunate falling-out, I'm writing this for the closure we have constantly been seeking for. We have gotten through the storms, and the messes have been cleaned up. At least things are a little friendly again.
Although I am not sure if we will ever be as close as sisters again, and even if we have new friends now, I am still here for you. I will continue to be there for you if you need any help or advice. After all, you were my best friend and I bent over backwards if you asked for it. Today isn't any different.
I hope and wish you the absolute best, because you deserve it and you have a lot going for you! If you need anything, just know that I'm here.
"I'll be there for you, like I've been there before."
Sincerely, your ex-best friend