Dear Future Boyfriend,
I can't wait to meet you. I can't imagine the year I finally get to make you my first boyfriend. Is it during college or during high school? Or maybe even after I graduate college? I'm not sure. But whatever year it is, I hope you know this: I'm not the perfect girl.
I'm probably boring to talk to. No one can possibly manage a conversation with me for more than five minutes unless they are overly social and just love talking to people. I'm an introvert; I'm shy. Even if I'm boring in the beginning, I get more interesting as time passes by. I open up and start acting random. I like to laugh and spout lame jokes. I even talk about random things just out of the blue. But there are times when I cross the line and talk about things that should not even be mentioned. I can't help it; it's who I am.
I'm not the prettiest girl in the world. To be honest, I'm barely pretty. I just take pictures at a good angle. But after, like, 100 photos. I have to perfect the lighting, change the angle of my face, and partially smile to shrink my face. And you know how makeup supposedly makes girls look prettier? It makes me look uglier. The only "magic" it does to my face is cover up my acne. That's it.
I am school-obsessed. This doesn't mean I'm in love with school. It's just that I'm obsessed with getting good grades in school and when I don't, I constantly go on and on about how my grade is going to die. It's a hundred percent true. To be honest, if I was listening to myself rant about my grade, I'd leave the room.
I have high expectations. I hope that my first boyfriend is perfect: he has this amazing smile that can make a girl melt, figuratively of course. I wish for him to serenade me through song and dance. To be specific, a dancer like a Korean pop star and the vocals of Hunter Hayes's "Wanted." It just makes me have butterflies inside my stomach. Also, I hope that you're the sweetest guy I could ever meet. For example, a guy who would walk on the outside of the sidewalk so I could walk on the inside.
But this is not all.
Things aren't perfect all the time; in fact, no one is perfect. No one is perfectly pretty, no one can be amazingly social, and no one can be not school-obsessed. All girls have insecurities. It's just human nature. And not even you can be perfect. But what I do know for sure is that to me, I'm sure you're the best guy in the world. The best guy I have ever met to grab my attention away from Korean pop stars (I'm sure by now you already know how much I like Korean music). But anyway, even if you can't sing or dance, there must be at least ten amazing reasons for why I chose you as my first boyfriend. And I trust myself. I just hope you will treat me well in the future and just to let you know: I'm a girl who can be tough on the outside, but on the inside, I'm quite fragile.
I wish you good luck with me and thank you so much. Thank you for giving a hopeless girl like me a chance with an amazing guy like you. Thank you for making me smile.
Love,
Your Girlfriend from the Past