In my lifetime I've lost 4 friends to suicide. They are all wonderful people who I miss dearly. So here is an open letter to them.
Hey there,
I guess the best way to start this off is by telling you how much I miss you all. I don't think a day has gone by where your images or memories don't appear in my mind. You know, they say there will come a time where you don't think about people who are gone every day, but truly I don't mind it.
Instead, I think they should say "There will come a day where you will no longer cry every time you think about them." Which is true, it takes a while but now when I think of you all, I only think about how wonderful and kind each and every one of you were.
I just started my sophomore year of college, I know you would all be so proud of me. I'm following my dreams and majoring in Acting. I wish I could see you all grow and start new beginnings.
I wish I could've helped you more. I wish I would've known what you were going through and how you were feeling. I know none of this is my fault but I can't help but to feel guilty. You weren't alone. You have so many people who love you.
We all wanted to help, but we are not mad at you. Life is hard, it hurts, it's full of depression and misery. It sucks sometimes, but it's also filled with beauty and joy. I wish I could go through these happy times with you.
I hope you are in a better place. I hope you gained the peace I know you deserved here but never got.
I love you all more than words, sounds, pictures, or anything could ever express.
You are not forgotten. You live on through me and everyone you loves you.
With love,
Kodie Brown