My immediate thoughts when I found out that Nick Viall was the next Bachelor were, this poor man. I mean, this guy has been through the televised process of trying to find love three times now. First, on Andy’s season, where he lost to Josh Murray; second on Kaitlyn’s season, where he lost to Shawn Booth; and third on Bachelor in Paradise, where apparently he and Jen don’t end up together. I guess him being known as The Runner Up is pretty accurate.

To say my brain was a mess when I found out the news, would probably be an understatement. I am very invested in this show. In order to make it easier to understand, I have broken it down into a timeline of events.

First, was shock. I had read elsewhere that Luke from JoJo’s season was going to be the next bachelor so when the news came out that it was actually Nick, I was definitely surprised. Also, slightly disappointed because who doesn’t want to watch a hot cowboy fall in love on their TV’s every week?

Next, I would have to say I was slightly bummed. This news meant that Nick and Jen don’t end up together in this current season of Bachelor in Paradise. I thought they were a super cute couple and was actually getting on the page of him ending up with Jen. My heart broke for the poor guy. He just wants to find love! Is that too much to ask from the universe? Apparently so.

After the initial gloom, my next feelings were of confusion. Why in the world would this man agree to have his FOURTH attempt to fall in love be televised once again? Sure, he would technically be in control now, as the bachelor is the one that gets to choose the women he wants to keep and has no ability to be kicked off. But, still! What if at the end Nick proposes and the girl says no? I think my heart might actually split in half. We will see.

Once the confusion passed, a short wave of jealousy washed over me. Because, let’s be honest, the dude is really good looking. I mean, if he doesn’t find love on his season of the Bachelor, I might actually call him up and let him know how single and ready for marriage I am as a 19-year-old having little-to-no relationship experience at all. We don’t even have to date, let’s just get straight to the marriage and kids and everything!

I’m kidding.

Sort of.

Anyway, that jealousy quickly melted into a feeling of excitement as I realized that I get to watch this beautiful man on television some more! Long walks on the beach (shirtless), contemplative scenic shots (hopefully shirtless), interviews delving deep into his thoughts and feelings (pretty please be shirtless). And if I don’t get to make out with him, at least I get to watch other people make out with him and pretend it’s me. Basically, I was very relieved that my television would be graced with the presence of Nick Viall for one more season.

Along with the excitement came a feeling of hopefulness for Nick. Ultimately, as much as I love him, I do hope that this season ends differently for Nick than the past seasons he’s been on. Just like everybody else in the world, the guy deserves to find love with a wonderful woman who will make him happy and feel like the luckiest guy in the world. Do I believe that this can happen on a television show? Possibly. It worked out for Sean and Catherine, (actual goals), so why can’t it work out for Nick?

In the end, this is where my feelings on Nick Viall being the next bachelor rest: I am excited to watch his beautiful face and body on my screen again, and I do sincerely hope he can find love this time (with me). Who knows, maybe fourth time’s the charm for the guy! Good luck to you Nick, I sincerely hope to see you engaged come the end of the season.