This is what you cannot do- you cannot let this world make you bitter. You cannot let bad people turn your heart cold to the good ones. You cannot hold a grudge against this world.
This is as much to me as it is to you, I have some thawing out to do. My heart needs quite a bit of work, it's under reconstruction. Because I have been hurt too many times- by people, by places, by words, by moments. I let my heart freeze, ignoring the signs of hypothermia. And thawing out is a painful process. Remember when you were a kid and you would run outside and play in the snow all day? Then when you came inside you would stick your numb hands under the hot water in the sink and it would burn. That's how it feels- it lights up your whole body with emotions you've blocked and unfriended. But it's necessary- it is completley neeed.
It's so easy to freeze up. It's easy to get angry at this world and it's inhabitants. It's easy to get angry when you see the faulty governments. When you see the foster care system and all it is lacking. When you see a natural disaster devestate a country. When you witness corrupt politics. When you see the poverty and pain that exists in all corners of the world. When you hold starving orphans and feel all of their ribs poking you. When you hear about a 5-year-old girl getting raped. When your classmate commits sucide. When cancer takes your mom who should've had 50 more years. When you see what America has become. When you see terrorists bombing airports and people shooting up schools. When your bestfriend was killed in Orlando. When your loved one dies serving their country at war. When your family gets hurt and scarred by cruel people...
I could go on and on about the corruption this world is home to, about the things that tempt us to be bitter. But this is what you cannot do- you cannot let this world make you bitter. Because it is so easy to let your heart freeze but such a grueling process to thaw it out. Don't let people's actions make you unkind. It is NOT okay to do wrong just because you've been wronged. When you fill your heart with biterness you are the only one losing, it is only hurting you. And it is not worth it, take it from someone who knows. I beg you and plead you to keep your heart's gates wide open. You have been deeply hurt and you will be hurt again. But oh the joy and love you would miss if you locked the gates. If you can look past the handful of cruel people in this world you will see millions of beautiful souls standing right on the other side.
