This is a shout out to all those years I won't ever get back.
I told you that I loved you, and you said it too, but the only difference was that I didn't lie to you. So, honey, I hope you enjoy screwing your best friend's ex because sloppy seconds is all you're ever going to get.
This is an open letter to the guy who cheated on me.
I could sit here and rant about how much I despise you, how dirty you did me and go on about how this is your loss and not mine, but I'm not going to do that. I'm here to say a prayer for you. So let me commence.
Any man that feels it's okay to cheat on a woman is truly a man I pray for. Because clearly there is something so bobbed in your morals and values that you felt it was okay to betray a woman who was nothing but loyal and all about you.
When I went to college, it stunned me as to how insecure you were. How I always felt the need to send you pictures of what I was doing, who I was with, what I was wearing, and to remove myself from social settings to check in with you; I always went out of my way to make you feel as secure and stabled as possible. I wanted to give you absolutely no reason to not trust me. It really threw me off with how insecure you were, especially with the efforts I took to ensure all of my loyalty and trust possible. And now I realize it was because you were the one with a guilty conscious.
And what hurts me, even more, is that I had to find out from your best friend. You did not even have the audacity to give me honesty. Instead, you let me live day-to-day completely oblivious to the fact I was dating a man who stabbed me in the back. And in all honesty, I feel so disgusted with myself. How did I not catch on to your insecurities? As a girlfriend, I was doing everything right, but that still was not enough for you. I made you my top priority and yet, I'm still the one paying the price.
It's men like you who make me believe that all guys are the same. You're not even worthy of the term "man" because a man would not take such a large piece away from a woman he claimed to have "cared for". And a man would not betray his best friend and sleep with his girlfriend like you did. Who on earth do you think you are?
And from here, I'm just going to say "thank you" for those disgusting text messages you sent me calling me sickening and repulsive names I wouldn't even classify to my deepest enemy. Honestly, my only response to that is to explain how sorry I am that you are so f*cked in the head that you feel it's okay to use that kind of language on a human being, especially one that YOU cheated on. I feel horrible for any girl that falls in love with you, I really truly pity her. She will not gain the respect that she is so deserving of, and my advice to her is to run. Run right now.
To all the beautiful people out there, please, do not ever forget your worth.
Do not let your value be defined by any single individual, especially one who doesn't acknowledge it.
Do not alter your morals and values to try and gain another's attention.
As human beings, we are so worthy of so much more. You should not want to be with someone who does not see you as their absolute everything. You should not commit your entirety to one who only commits a fraction. Life is a game made for everyone, and love is the prize. It is a beautiful entity, and if someone doesn't see you for all that you are and more, I promise you someone else will.
Luckily, I learned young as to what I do deserve and what I am worthy of, and fortunately for me, I'm no longer with someone who betrays and belittles me in such a way; so many people warned me about you, and I disregarded them because I thought I knew who you were. And now, you're just a lesson learned.
And to end this, I hope she's getting satisfied and doesn't have to fake it like I did.
Amen.
Xoxo,
Your biggest loss.