Looking back, 2017 was probably one of the most confusing, difficult and heart breaking years of my life. I was forced to let go of people that I thought would never not be a part of my life. I dealt with pain I never thought I would have to endure again and anxiety that I thought I had muted. But I did it, I fought, and I survived. I made it to 2018, and this year-- I'm focusing on myself. I'm promising to myself that I will let go of everything that has been a burden in my life. I am living my life for me from here on out, and no one else.
1. I will let go of... Toxic People
The truth is, you never realize how toxic a person is to your life until you're forced to live without them. But the goal this year is to get rid of those people before they become toxic. Before they hurt me. I will let go of anyone who makes me question my worth.
2. I will let go of... Trying to Please Everyone
Nothing is more tiring than trying to be someone you aren't. People who worry about "what others might think of them" lead nowhere. So, I will stop thinking about everyone else, and focus on myself and my own happiness. In the end, that's the only thing that matters. I want to be the real me.
3. I will let go of... Hating Myself
I will accept myself with all the pros and cons. This will be the year that I stop destroying my body. I will stop tearing myself apart and fuel my body with the nutrients it needs. I will learn to love the body I see in mirror, no matter what. I will treat my body with love.
4. I will let go of... the Fear of Failure
With my final semester of college quickly approaching, the constant fear of failure is a feeling I've come to know all too well. But this year I promise to not let myself shut down because of it. I will overcome. I will succeed.
5. I will let go of... Fear in General
Marilyn Monroe said it best, "fear is stupid, so are regrets." And that will be my motto for 2018. I will not let the fear inside of me stop me from going out there and bettering myself. I will not let the fear hinder me from doing what I want to do with my life. I will not let the fear inside win.
6. I will let go of... the Bad Habits
Bad habits are always something I hope to rid of with the new year, and something I always fall short of. However, this year, is the year of change. And I will rid of all my bad habits to better my life, and myself.
7. I will let go of... Weakness
2018 is the time to stop all the excuses. It is the time that I will not let my weaknesses and fears define me. I will leave all of that in 2017, and that's a promise. 2018 is the year that I step up and live my life for me. I am strong, and I can make it through anything and everything thrown my way.
8. I will let go of... The Past
This year has taught me more about myself than I could ever imagine. I learned that I can endure all the pain and still continue to move forward, forgive and forget, and move on. This past year has been an endless amount of tears and heartache, something I would never wish on my worst enemy. And it is something I hope to never go back to. The past does not define who I am as a person, and it never will.
And when I look back on this year, I want to look back and see how I was able to change for the better. I want to look back and see all the goals I was finally able to achieve. I want to say that I've found a good path at the close of 2018, and lived the best year of my life thus far. And continue that in the years to come.