For the past year, I've been up and down, and right now things are really looking up and it's so beautiful. I'm beyond glad that they are, too.
But my journey here has not been an easy one. At all. So many things had fallen apart in my life it had seemed like; my heart felt as if it was torn from within me. I felt like a shell of a human for the longest time. I felt empty. My freshman year of college was a little rough, but I made it through, and I'm not as angry with myself. I'm not as irritable and not as sad as I used to be.
A year ago I was working on myself; trying to mend my still broken heart; trying to learn how to live on my own. I was just becoming a cat mom, trying to make friends as a freshman in the summer semester. Things were hard, but it's made things for me a little easier in the long run. I got involved in FSA and became the Philanthropy director in my first year, and not many can say that.
It took a while to get to where I am now. Sometimes when you're not constantly looking, things fall into place.
Also, I think beautiful relationships and friendships often form when one is not actively seeking them. Even sometimes within yourself, peace can be found.
I will never stop loving my older sister's relationship with a man who is so good to her. Love like theirs I feel like is so extremely rare, which is terrifying. John just kinda became a part of her life and thus my family's when we least expected it. He's been such a blessing and wonderful addition to our family, and I know Eliza and I are waiting for that big question to be asked..."Can we get a cat?"
Okay but no really, I've been working a lot on myself lately and bettering myself for the last year and I've become extremely close to people that I never thought I would. I'm still working on those friendships, but I'm still learning too. I'm glad that I have people that are coming along for my journey. I'm so happy. And I'm also hoping that my mister that's up to every one of my standards is around the corner while I'm working on me. Hehehe. I pray and wish every night.
Moreover, I can't stop gushing about my first year experience as a RYLA counselor. I definitely didn't think that they'd need an extra counselor and that out of all the applicants, I'd be one of the two chosen.
That opportunity presented itself when I least expected it and I'm so beyond blessed that things just kinda fell into place.
I know that with most things, it requires work. But I'm just genuinely happy about how life is going right now.