There are days when I look in the mirror and think to myself "what am I doing?"

I just become overwhelmed with how disappointed I am in myself. Like how could I let it get this far? I use to be this athlete that was working out every day and eating healthier. And then I got to college, and all of what I use to know went out the door.

I am constantly making plans to make this one healthy meal or make it to the gym in the morning. But to do that I need to wake up earlier, get dressed and make my way to the gym to get a workout in. By the time my alarm is screaming at me, I hit snooze a few too many times and then it's really time to get up for the day.

So then I start thinking about this whole situation a little bit harder than I previously was. I know how I got here and it really wasn't anyone's fault but my own. As much as I want to place the blame on someone else, I simply can't. It what is even harder to think about is the lack of self-control I have had over the past however long.

It has become easier to come up with a new excuse every day than just make it happen. I am such a driven person in most other aspects of my life and for some reason, I have lost this drive. I can tell you time and time again that I really tried to get back on the horse, but I am lying to myself at the same time.

It is so much easier said than done, most people could tell you that. Making Pinterest board after Pinterest board does not make up for the fact that there are plans but no actions.

After the initial return to hell, it gets better. Somehow life likes to get in the way every time and stop that progress that I have worked so hard to make. Which makes me not want to try again for a time and that is just a vicious cycle that is harder than one would think to break.

There are other days when I look and the mirror and I am proud of the small progress that I can. Like the kind of progress that only I can see and no one would else would have a clue what I was talking about. Those days seem to be few and far between lately, but they do occur.

So here is to those good days. The ones when you are able to look in the mirror and truly be happy with what is reflecting back at you. Here is to trying to make those days closer together and more frequent.