Before indulging in this poem I just want to remind you that if you ever feel this way or you can relate a little too much to the things I say, please seek help and don't be afraid. I write this poem so people can be aware of you. For some of out there, these words are meaningless and don't hold true. For others, they are what we fight against and what we are going through. So once again, if this is you please seek help. If this is a friend you know, please seek help. If you don't want to talk to someone who can't relate to you then talk to me. Whatever the situation may just know you are not alone. You Are Never Alone.
For any University of Maryland students seeking help for you or a friend please schedule an initial appointment, also called an intake appointment call (301) 314-7651 or stop by the Counseling Center reception desk on the main level of Shoemaker Building.
For anyone else out there seeking help or help for a friend please call the National Suicide Prevention Hotline-1800-273-8255.
It has seemed that I lost my way and I do not have faith. You hear the things that I say and disgust creeps upon your face. You ask me what’s wrong and whether or not I’m okay, but to read beyond my words keen attention you’ll have to pay.
Understand that I am not cursed, but my words are a cry for help. I am trying to save my fellow man while trying to saving myself. It seems as if we disregard and undermine the importance of mental health. Maybe it is because we ourselves are not that well.
We don’t want someone telling us to go out and seek help, but we can’t do it ourselves and burden anyone else. The feeling of being a burden is a curse alone. We try to shake it off, but it's a plague own its own. A path of destruction, like the black plague it consumes. Going door to door, taking love ones from homes.
We are always told we are never alone. But in my dark mind, no ones light has shown. Don’t say it’s all in my head because in my head it’s all wrong. I don’t need you to be my psychiatrist or try to play one. I need some kind of empathy, tell me you’ve felt this too.
How can you try to help me if you don’t even understand what I’m going through? Suicidal thoughts brought to me with no advisory. When I do need help the most no one is around as far as the eye can see. Don’t pretend to understand, please don’t lie to me.
When I’m dead and gone I beg you to hold back your tears and don’t fake cry for me. Just remember these words, hold on to them tenaciously. Let me slow down and be clear so I don’t impair my speech.
We need to be aware to save our kind. Close our eyes and open our minds. We don’t notice until it’s too late and a love one is gone, throughout their life they probably sung the same song.
“Someone save me I cannot go on, but to ask for help I am not that strong. Every day is a fight my mind shows the scar. A brilliant man will find a way not to fight a war. This war is within so I have no choice. Someone please help me before I mute my own Voice.”
Resources that are available to those of you who feel this way:
National Suicide Prevention Hotline-1800-273-8255