It’s funny because at first, I was going to be comical and write about my love for pizza, but, then I thought to myself, “no let’s be serious for once”. I began going through past failed relationships or the lack thereof. I learned quickly that there was no love in those failed attempts of what I thought was a relationship with any of those boys. I even considered writing a cool letter as if I was revealing to the love of my life that he was in fact the unexpected love of my life, but I honestly don’t feel like I’m ready to say those words quite yet, especially since…. Never mind I’ll keep that private. You know who you are. Or do you? (wink, wink) Then I began to think about the many moments of my life that defined me as a person. I thought about who was there for me through thick and thin, who’s the one person in this world who I go to for anything, and who’s the one person I cannot absolutely live without? Then I realized that the unexpected love of my life was right under my nose this whole time. Literally. So here it goes……

To The Unexpected Love of My Life,

First I want to say I love you because I don’t say it enough to your face. Honestly, I cannot imagine what life would be like without you. You are my dwayne, my rock, my johnson. It’s so funny because when we were younger all we did was fight and argue until someone would cry. Then mom would have to come into our room to break us up. Because I was seen as the innocent goody two shoes child that can do no wrong, it was pretty easy to blame you and act as if everything was your fault. I knew exactly what words to use that would make you cry and would use them on you all the time. I knew how to get on your nerves without even touching you. There were times where I literally couldn’t stand being around you as a child because we would always argue. At the time I knew that I had no choice but to love you because mom said so. I remember looking at how all of my friends who had siblings interacted with them and I grew jealous of their close bond and wondered what happened to us?

Then as we grew up, things changed; we both got older, wiser, and went through puberty together. In a weird twist of fate, we went from the two siblings who always fought and argued with each other to the inseparable sisters. Still to this day, I don’t know how it happened but, it did. Maybe it was the first time where you confided in me on something that happened because you weren’t quite ready to talk to our parents about it. When we talked about that specific horrible event that happened, it shifted something in our relationship. I became very protective of you and felt as if I needed to be with you 24/7 just in case. Though it was a traumatizing event, at least some good came from it. Our relationship quickly took a turn for the better and you became the unexpected love of my life.

Let me start off by showering you with compliments:

You are so intelligent, strong, inspiring, and a freaking goddess for goodness sake! You are filled with so much positive energy to the point where I ponder day and night, how do you have such an insane amount and why can’t you share with me? You are filled with so much love and joyfulness. You are the only person in this world who can make me laugh for hours by literally doing nothing! NOTHING! You are a beautiful person inside and out. You never cease to amaze me. I am super jealous of the fact that you are able to be yourself no matter how crazy you look. Remember that one time we took the subway together and when you got off you chased the subway cart that I was in waving and yelling bye until you could no longer see me? (to the reading audience: yes she really did that) Or the time where you would sing loud down the street and no matter how fast I tried to get away from you, you would run faster towards me while trying to sing even louder? (to the reading audience members: YES SHE IS INSANE) You’re also a beautiful dancer so majestic… like a horse lol (to the reading audience: Ya’ll don’t understand how buff this girl is. She got those Michelle Obama arms and her legs are full of muscles.)You exuberate confidence and strength. You are the definition of black girl magic. You’re just so gosh darn perfect I cannot even handle it.

As your time in highschool comes to a close, I cannot express enough how proud I am of you. I know your senior year was kind of rough working two jobs, being apart of a dance company, and also dealing with friend drama. I get it. But, think about all the things that you’ve accomplished so far. Like yall…. my sister has a 4.0 GPA and received a full scholarship to Lincoln University. When faced with discrimination you handle it with so much class. For instance, one of her classmates said she received a full scholarship because she was black and she simply responded, “ I received a full scholarship because I’m just smart.” Like what? No effort. Simple as that. It’s funny because you’re one of my biggest role models and I find myself trying to be like you and you’re my younger sister. I thought it was supposed to be the other way around?!

Anyways, I just want to let you know that no matter what, even though we still fight and argue playfully for the the most part, I will always love you and be there for you. I will continue to give you my shoulder so that you can cry on it if need be. Im also always ready to drop any and everything if you need me. Now that you’re heading off to college soon and getting ready to start a new chapter in your life, I’m starting to realize that I won’t see you as much as I’m used to. I’m crying just thinking about how far away you’ll be from me and I know I’m going to hate every moment of it. I know that I don’t have to worry because there’s no limit to what you can do boo. I love you so much Daejah that it’s not even funny. Thanks for being the unexpected love of my life that has always been right under my nose, that has now grown into the woman who is the same height as me.

Sincerely,

Your favorite sister, Corrina

P.S. Stop denying that I am your favorite. You’re not taller than me so shut it. Focus on the fact that I actually admitted to loving you.