There are many reasons why someone would constantly carry an object with them. It could be symbolic of a lost, a memory, an amazing day, or person. They could also carry something with them out of habit, like me. I carry hair ties with me at all times. For as long as I can remember there has always been two hair ties around my wrist.
Why hair ties? Why do I have a need to feel two black bands tight around my wrist, cutting off the blood circulation to my hand and leaving weird indents in my skin? Always two. I never lend one away, not just because it's kind of gross, but because I know I will never get it back. The thought saddens me because that little hair tie is almost a part of me. It lives with me and I do not want to let it go anywhere. It's mine. Perhaps it's because I never properly learned how to share, or because I feel I have shared too much. Perhaps I have given so many pieces of myself to other people already that I could no longer cope if I lost one more tiny thing.
It could be seen as a symbol of my fear of loss. Not just the fear of losing something, but maybe someone. If people have been coming in and out of your life so much, it starts to make you possessive. You appreciate everything you have, no matter how small. Is it silly to think of a hair tie as a symbol for someone you love? Absolutely, but if you think about a little too much, hair ties can break easily then you have to throw them away, and it could take a while until you find another good hair tie.
My hair ties give me a sense of security, similar to the feeling of knowing you have someone you can fall back on. These hair ties may be holding me back from facing a fear I have deep down, but I am not ready to deal with this fear. So, until I am ready I will continue to carry two hair ties around my wrist at all times.