Have you ever woken up with the blues? The lovely shade that seeps into your mind with no hesitation. The color that should remind you of a pretty sky dawns on you, darkly like a storm. Oh, how I hate the blues.

The other day I woke up and as I began to get out of bed, it hit me. A rush that made my heart sad and my mind incoherent. I decided that staying in bed would be my best solution. I spent the day looking at videos, reading blogs and articles, and staring at my ceiling, trying to self-diagnose myself.

What could possibly be wrong with me? My life was full of color just 24 hours before. A rainbow had been shining down on me and a smile was upon my face. Why did my brain decide that today, I would only feel one color, and that'd be a dark shade of blue?

"Is there something wrong with me? Am I going crazy? Am I depressed? Will I be able to get out of this mental state that is holding me back from a lovely shade of yellow?" All these questions were scrambling in my mind, until I couldn't take them anymore.

I realized, my mind had been playing tricks on me. This is no way to live. I was spending a beautiful day, locked in my room, hoping I would find courage to get out of bed. Why had I allowed my mind to decide that I would only experience blue? All I wanted was a day full of yellow.

I am in control of my body. I make my own decisions. I will not allow myself to be a statistic and to let myself get pulled in further into the toxic parts of my mind. From that point on, I decided I would choose my blue and yellow days. I would choose what I wanted to be and how I wanted to be.