I am an 11th grader in high school and I'm sure you are now thinking wow this is the year that really counts. My guidance counselor has said the same exact thing which led to me having an emotional breakdown in my room. This is the year I start taking all my SATs and ACTs as well as looking at colleges and deciding what my major will be. However, I am as undecided as ever.

I know when everyone asks me what I want to do in college or what interests me and I reply, "I don't really know", they sort of don't know what to say back so they just say "well you have time." In my eyes, though it doesn't feel like I have time at all. It feels like the clock is just ticking away and I am still sitting on my bench contemplating every major in the world.

One major that does catch my eye is journalism, It seems that I enjoy writing and I think I am pretty good at it. My dream would be to be a writer for a magazine in New York City. Good dream, right? The chances of that actually happening are very slim. Besides writing and journalism, I don't know what other degrees even interest me.

I could see myself being a writer, nurse, teacher, wedding/event planner, or a detective. Why can't I just be all of those professions? They all sort of interest me but I'm not sure which one I would want to be for the rest of my life. I know it is okay if I switch majors in college but I can't keep switching it a thousand times until I find my perfect match.

Now... To the college aspect. I recently went to the College Fair of Jacksonville and that was interesting. Though I still have no idea where I want to go to college. I know where I don't want to go: UF, FSU, UCF, or USF. I could not see myself at a huge college or in a lecture hall with hundreds of students. That then limits my college choices in Florida.

I am not sure why I am indecisive, maybe it is the thought of actually growing up and starting my own life that worries me. I am so used to living in the same house, being around the same people, and shopping in the same mall. I know once I graduate from high school everything will change and that's what worries me. I will be starting a whole new chapter in my life.

I have months to figure out where I want to go to college before I start applying so it is time to research, research, research. I also do have some time to keep researching majors. Who knows maybe in a few years I will be behind a computer writing, in a classroom teaching, or chasing a criminal down the street.