I was driving the other day and I saw something that reminded me of you. I almost sent you a message but then I remembered we have not talked in months. I started thinking about our friendship and how good it was. It all started to come back to me, the memories we have made. And I could not help but wonder, if we saw each other what would happen? If our paths were to cross again would you hug me, say hi and ask how I have been, or just completely ignore me? I honestly do not know what I would do. You were my best friend, the person I told everything to, the person I turned to for everything. How can you look at someone with that much history and pretend those years of friendship between you never even happened?
I think it is hard to let go because you leave pieces of yourself in everything you love. Sometimes those parts of you are pieces you would not get back. That’s why when we lose someone we love it feels like there is an empty space, a void, in our lives that will never be filled. One of the hardest lessons I have learned is that although someone may mean so much to you they are not always meant to stay in your life. If the door closes, you have to trust that it is closed for a reason; that the person is not meant to join you on the next part of your journey. Maybe that person was in your life to teach you something or help you grow more mature as a friend and as a person. That is something I wish I understood earlier in life. I understand now that you were put in my life as a lesson. I needed to experience our friendship. I needed to experience the fight between us. I needed to experience that loss to learn more about myself and others.
So, to the friend who decided to leave, I want to say thank you. Thank you for coming into my life and giving me a reason to smile. Thank you for making me laugh when I felt sad. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you. Thank you for being a good friend. Thank you for carrying me into the next chapter of my life. Thank you for taking care of me and accepting me for who I am.
I hope you are doing well. I hope you find the happiness you have been looking for. I hope you find someone who treats you the way you deserve to be treated. I hope you find peace within yourself. I hope you find true friendships in the people in the people you meet. I hope you get a chance to travel the world. I hope you are living out your dreams and living life to its fullest capacity. Although you aren’t in my life anymore, I still care about you and I want you to know that I truly wish you the best.