As I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom I had locked myself in, balling my eyes out, with him sitting on the other side of the door begging me to come out, it was then that I realized there was no place I would rather be.

Growing up I always had this idea of the "perfect relationship". Every guy that I dated would automatically be held to these standards I had made up in my head. Even if they fell short, though, I would be convinced that they would get there and that in time we would be able to create this so called perfect relationship. It wasn't until I found myself in the most imperfect relationship that I realized it was everything I ever needed, and nothing I would have ever thought to want.

I believe there's a moment in every relationship where you just know this is or is not going to work. Sometimes this moment is movie worthy: looking into each other’s eyes, knowing you never want to live without that person, this is what I wanted. Sometimes it's during one of your toughest times, realizing there's no one else you'd rather be going through this with, this is what I needed.

I always wanted a man who was handsome, kind, funny, Godly, had similar interests, etc. As ordinary and realistic as all of those qualities are, I realized that though someone may have all of them, they may still not be what I need. I always wanted a man that I could help. Little did I know that I needed a man who would not only let me help them, but would also help me.

In the end, it's not about the little details you always dreamed about, but the details you never realized would mean so much. It's being able to be 100 percent yourself every single second you're with them and never wondering if that will make them love you less. Them realizing your disaster of a self, and never wishing it to be any different. You being able to see them at their absolute worst, most pitiful state, and still looking at them like they are the most perfect human being. Not worrying about grossing them out because your relationship has no boundaries. Fighting with the utmost passion because no matter how much you drive each other crazy, you never doubt the love you have for one another. Knowing that no matter what, they will fight for you because they see nothing but your worth and know it's too valuable to let go of.

Relationships can't be listed off into an ideal perfection. It's a funny thing, though. When you let go of the things you think you want and let yourself be open to the things that you need, they ultimately end up being the same. What you once never realized you needed, becomes everything you can never imagine not wanting.