Leaving high school, I was never much of a dater. I had a few boyfriends here and there, for a few weeks at a time, but nothing every long term or remotely serious. High school sweethearts meant nothing to me mainly because I was moving away for college.

Once I started college, I had a sudden interest in dating. I had always heard so many stories of people meeting, dating all of college, getting married and living happily ever after; that was exactly what I wanted. Until I realized ,that just because we were a year older did not mean that boys were suddenly men. Boys still wanted to play the same games as those in high school if not worse games. I found myself confused my first semester of college, because nothing was working out, and wasn't this the time to find your husband? I began to fear, I would not find anyone worth dating.

Then, I started seeing someone- actually dating- and for the first time I wonder if this would be the man I would marry. Months later as the relationship began to crumble, I was confused once again. How am I getting my heart broken still when I am suppose to finding my husband?

That's when it hit me. I needed to stop looking.

I was never going to find a husband by looking. I am only 19, I have my entire life ahead of me, way past my college years to find someone worth spending the rest of my life with.

I had to turn my trust to God. I trust that God is preparing the man he wants me to marry years from now. I trust that he is preparing my future husband's heart the way he is preparing mine. I pray we find our way to each other when God sees that we are ready. I pray he loves Jesus and babies as much as I do, but until then I will wait.

I will stop looking and beginning waiting. I will wait for the one God has prepared for me.

Ecclesiastes 3:1: "There is an occasion for everything and a time for every activity under heaven:"