To the ones who have stuck by me,

Over the years’ friends come and go. You take the time to let people in and know your story. You let them meet the family, the dogs, the hometown friends, and one day, most of them will leave. You can spend hours upon on hours trying to figure out why they left, what you did wrong, how you could have changed the outcome. The truth is, you will never understand why people leave you. It will never make sense as to why somebody could walk out of your life so easily as if there was a friendship never there, but that isn’t what this is about, this is about the people who have stayed and what they mean to me.

You have seen me at the top of my mountains, even though sometimes in the grand scheme of things they are only tiny little hills. Most of all, you have seen me at my worsts, the times when I feel like there is nothing else in the world that can go wrong… and it does, but you’re right there offering me a handout- or a margarita to get me through.

You have done everything in your power to make things work out. We may not see each other all the time, honestly, we probably rarely see each other because of how busy we are and the fact that we have opposite schedules, but when we do, it’s like we never skipped a beat. We know that it only takes one phone call or text message to arrange to see each other.

You have made the biggest difference in my life, and you don’t even know. There have been days where everything around me just gets me down. The days where nothing goes right for me, and I just want to cry, you are there for me when I get home with wine and food and let me watch trashy T.V. for as long as I want. You let me come over at odd hours of the night because I don’t want to be alone in my room. You go on random adventures with me so I can pretend like I do things with my life other than watching six different series on Netflix at one time.

I just want to say thank you. Thank you for everything that you do for me. You may not notice that you are doing anything, but it is the little things that most. You have saved me from being my worst critic and made me into a better version of myself. You can lift my spirits in twenty minutes. You can turn any bad day around with the smallest of gestures. You let me have my pity party but remind me that they have to come to an end. You will let me blast music and scream at the top of my lungs while riding down the highway at 2 o’clock in the morning because a boy made me cry. You are the reason I am still here today. You saved my life, and you didn’t even know it. You told me you loved me and that our friendship means something to you, and at that moment I knew, I had found where I was supposed to be. So, for everything that you have done and everything that you will do, thank you times a million.

Love,

Your Hot Mess Friend