They say that all good things must come to an end, that when one good thing ends another starts. They start to warn you of this when you begin high school, more and more frequently the closer you get to graduation . They tell you that whenever you leave for college that you will change. They tell you that your old friends become acquaintances, but what they don't tell you is how it feels to feel alone, though you never are alone. You go home from college and you see pictures hanging on your bedroom walls of people you once spent every day with. You scroll through Instagram and Facebook and wonder if anyone else other than you is feeling the same way. They don't tell you that for the first time in 18 years you are in charge of the decisions in your life. Suddenly you are expected to shatter the world and break new grounds with this new freedom. You are silently expected to know where your future is, where you are being led to. You are being stitched together with expectations. You are expected to soar and to be greater than everyone else.
College is life changing. College is more than writing a ten page paper for a writing studies class or presenting a ten minute long speech in front of 30 peers. College is being overwhelmed, college is going home for a weekend and not really feeling at home, college is also living in a dorm room and not really feeling at home their either. College is late nights, early mornings, college is coffee for breakfast and forgetting to eat lunch. College is losing your best friend but gaining a new one. College is figuring out your life and your future and not having anything together at all. College is allowing the light to burn brighter inside of you than the fires around you. College is an experience. One good thing has ended and another has begun.
So, learn to feel alone. Learn that you will fall short of some expectations but you will also push much farther than many others. Learn that it is okay not to know what your future holds, because you know who holds your future.
"When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things." 1 Corinthians 13:11.
God has everything planned out, it is time to put away childish things such as, the fear of failing and bearing the expectations of others on your shoulders. Soar because you allowed the light inside of you to burn brighter than the negativity of the fire around you. Soar because you looked every challenge in the face and accepted it. Soar because you fell down and stood right back up. College is a time to excel. College is a time to find your calling.
"For now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face: now I know in part; but then shall I know even as also I am known. And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity." 1 Corinthians 13:12-13. "Follow after charity, and desire spiritual gifts, but rather that ye may prophesy." 1 Corinthians 14:1.
Seeing through the dark glass, much like looking in a mirror in a dark room allows little to no vision. It is blurry but you have a peak of what is to come, that is what high school does for us. Now you are face to face. Following after you abide in the three spiritual aspects; faith, hope and charity (love), desire your spiritual gift. All of the expectations around you, all of the fire burning outside, all of the losses and all of the change, all of the decision and indecision, through it all HE, the light inside of you burns