As has been thoroughly reported by now, two tragic shootings happened in Orlando on June 11 and 12.
First, "The Voice" alum and Youtube star Christina Grimmie was shot and killed by a man wielding two handguns. The 22-year-old was signing autographs after her Friday night concert had ended.
Early Sunday morning, more than 50 people were killed and at least 53 were injured at Orlando's largest gay nightclub when a man stormed the building with an AR-15 assault rifle and a handgun. It is being investigated as a possible domestic terror act and hate crime.
I'm saddened by the news, and I mourn for the victims and their families. But most of all I'm extremely angry.
I'm angry at the homophobia that is still pervasive in government officials and the populace at wide and the inhuman ways we treat the LGBTQI community both in the legal and societal spheres.
I'm angry that part of the United States will still use this attack and the ethnicity of this individual as justification for their bigotry and hatred towards Islam, Arabic peoples and non-European foreigners.
I'm angry that after four years of mass shooting, gun violence, and the deaths of thousands of people, including so many young people, almost nothing has been done to enhance public safety, both in regards to gun control and improving our mental healthcare system.
Don't tell me that because the sexuality of these people were offensive to your religion that in some twisted way what happened was justified. Or that Islam and the Quran is preaching violence and hatred that can only be solved with equally spiteful racism and mass deportation. Or that universal background checks or limits on firearms would not have prevented the attack or lessened its severity.
Homophobia, racism, and gun violence have gone on for years, and we have been either too complacent to deal with them or too willing to acknowledge empty opinions as credible arguments.
Worst of all, in a few days we will return to that pattern of "this week's mass shooting," and nothing will change.
I once again have to accept that other people's hatred and bigotry are their "political opinions" or "religious beliefs" rather than poisonous thoughts that deserve as much tolerance as they give others.
I have to accept the fact that the events of Orlando can easily be replicated in my neighborhood, my college campus, my work, and that thousands of people will continue to die from unfettered gun violence.
I have to accept this new normal that is anything but, the status quo where tens of thousands die and countless more suffer silently.
I don't know what it will take to stir people out of inaction or narrow-minded prejudice. I know we can do it, and I know it will happen eventually. But I'm sick of repeatedly seeing pain and injustice run rampant while we wait.