I know it sucks. You feel like you've poured yourself out so much and he doesn't even care how empty you are because of it. You feel like you keep giving and giving until there's nothing left to give. And then when he wonders why you aren't happy, he doesn't understand that he's the cause of it all. You feel like you've loved so hard and so much that your heart can't possibly beat anymore. You feel like he's taken everything you've given, ran away with it all, and has left you completely hollow inside.
I know the feeling. I once liked this guy who at first made me feel like the only girl in the world and nothing could even compare to me. He made me feel like a complete gem and made my world seem more colorful and bright. But during this season of liking this guy, I was so blinded by the fact that he actually liked me and didn't even realize how much he had taken out of me. I blamed myself for so long that I had done something wrong and that it was my fault that he didn't like me anymore. But, I figured out afterwards that he was completely toxic. He took everything that he wanted out of me and left me with nothing in return. He took my happiness, my self-esteem, the brightness and color out of my world, my self-confidence, just to name a few.
But please let me tell you that you are so much more than that. You are so much more than how he makes you feel right now. You are so much more than what he thinks about you. You are so much more than what anyone thinks about you. You are strong. You are brave. You are fearless. You are beautiful. You are worthy of love. Do not ever think you aren't any of these qualities because you most certainly are. It was hard for me to understand how I could have been so blind to what was happening right in front of me, but please let me tell you that even if you feel broken and empty, God can restore you and fill you with his love.
You are a daughter of the living God who simply adores you. He calls you his own and says you are more precious than diamonds, rubies or any of the gems that guy said you were. He crafted you in his hands and created you for a purpose. That purpose is so much more than getting your heart broken or being taken for granted by a guy who doesn't truly care about you. I hope this helps you with your self-confidence. I hope this lets you know how much you are loved by a man who died for you so that you could live. I hope this lets you know that you are loved, you are important, and you have so much more in store for your future.
"She is more precious than jewels, and nothing you desire can compare with her." Proverbs 3:15