First of all, I want you to know that I have been there and I am sure other people have felt the same way. Whether you have loved somebody who did not love you back, or you let a person in your life who did not deserve to be there, I know how you feel. Loneliness and fear can do crazy things to a person and you may not know what hit you.
No matter how much you think you love him, you do not deserve that boy who cheated on you after dating you for months on end. No matter how much you think you care for her, you do not deserve that “friend” who called you names behind your back. No matter how much they tell you they love and care for you, you do not need anybody in your life who makes you feel bad about yourself, no matter who they are in relation to you.
I have learned that people can and will hurt you. I have spent my entire life giving my all to people. I have displayed love and kindness towards the people who have come into my life and who I believe deserved my affection. However, I learned how vulnerable this has made me and some of these people did not belong in my life. Yes, it is always a good thing to be a kind, loving person but many people take advantage of others of this nature.
I found myself continually giving more and more to people who did not deserve anything. Don’t get me wrong, I have many people in my life who I love dearly and who have reciprocated this affection but what hurts the most is the people who did not. I was able to love all of my fellow human beings, however, I found that I was unable to love myself.
I had this idea in my head that I would always love people who would love me back. However, I learned that this love was not enough to make me feel whole and I needed to love myself as much as I loved other people. As a result, I spent some time taking care of myself, I surrounded myself with the right people and I slowly, but surely figured out that I did love myself. I just needed something to bring that side of me out into the world.
After hearing my experience, I am sure that you have some self worth inside you too, even if you cannot feel it at the moment. Just remember, you are beautiful. You have worth. You are important. You do not need negativity in your life. You are a treasure and anybody would be more than lucky to have you in their life. You just need to make sure they are worthy of you. Choose these people wisely.
Do not, and I repeat, do not let people hurt you. Their harsh words are just words that probably arise from jealousy and ignorance anyway. Remember to love those who deserve your affection and to reciprocate love to those who love you. Most importantly, remember to leave time to love yourself to the fullest extent. You deserve to be happy after all.
So whoever you are, you are worth it. Don't let anyone make you think that you aren't enough. Tell that stupid boy that you deserve better. Tell that friend that they are toxic and you deserve better. Show the universe what you are made of.