I miss you. I wish we could have grabbed that coffee or go to the lunch we were planning... instead of going to your funeral. I wanted to pick your brain, see how you were, reminisce about our time in Haiti, and work on cultivating our friendship. Truthfully, I'm still experiencing the disbelief. It's really hard for me to believe you're really gone because you were so full of love and joy and life.
If you were to ask anyone what Cassie was like, I guarantee they would begin with how kind, compassionate, funny, beautiful, talented, and extraordinary she was. For the longest time when I was first getting to know Cassie, she was incredibly quiet and shy. However, she was anything but. Cassie was an absolute giant. Her faith and love for God were unwavering.
At her service, a portion of her journal was shared. In it, the pages read, "Never leave me Lord, keep me under your wing". I have no doubt that He did just this. To this day, I'm still unclear of many things that happened in the days preceding her going home. But one of the few things I'm sure of is that Cassie was so incredibly brave.
No matter what the circumstance or the trial, she kept her eyes focused on the Lord. She had hopes, dreams, goals and so many aspirations, but above all, she had incredible faith. Cassie's faith was a true reflection of who she was. If one thing could be said about her time on Earth, it can be said that she 'loved Jesus, and talked to God often'.
Her faith was a testament to who she was and was a reflection of the incredible heart she had.
I don't think Cassie ever met a person she couldn't love. She was always the first to show grace and compassion to strangers and kindness and generosity to her friends. Mark 12:31 says, "The second is this: 'Love your neighbor as yourself.' There is no greater commandment than these." If Cassie's life had a mission statement, it would have been this verse.
You were a light to so many beautiful.
You encouraged countless people daily.
My dear, you were a light in an otherwise dark world.
I still wish I could have told you what you meant to me. This was one of the biggest things I took away from your passing. So, I began the journey of showing and sharing my love for the people I care about. I didn't want the legacy of your life to not be applicable to my own. I knew that if I was going to honor you in the best way possible, I would do the thing you were probably the best at.
In just a short amount of time, you lived the most fulfilling life. Without a doubt Cassie, you touched the lives of everyone you ever met. From work to school to church, your light and life reflected one thing: Jesus. Everyone who knows you knew this. While you were so intelligent and crazy beautiful, every single day you drew breath you reflected the glory and awesome plan of God.
All I have to say is thank you, Cassie. Thank you for all the lessons you've taught me in the last year. Thank you for challenging me to choose joy. Thank you for inspiring me to love and be okay with accepting love. Thank you for encouraging me to step out with nothing but faith. I'll never truly be able to thank you enough but thank you for all the lessons you've taught and you continue to teach me.
I love you, Cass.