I used to care about the date I put in my bio. It was such a big thing for me, and I had to like the date of it because if I didn't like the way it looked in Roman numerals then I didn't want it.

Now I only care that your name is there just so people know I'm taken. They don't have to know every little detail because it's between us.

I don't think I realized then what I did to him. How we could have been as close as we were. How he trusted me the way that he did no matter what happened in his past. I was his best friend and I just ended it; what type of person is able to just go and end it after everything that you went through??

Now I can look back on it and be okay with it because if I hadn't, I wouldn't have met you. But now I have learned from that relationship. I learned that if you love someone enough, then you must put in the effort to fix problems you have, not just ending the relationship because of one issue.

I understand now why everything happened the way it happened. I understand why he's so happy now that he's engaged. Now I am so happy that I finally found somebody that put me in that position that I was with him, but I wasn't in the right mindset when I was with him. I wanted to just be free, and live life to the fullest.

Again, I'm so happy I decided that because now I have you. This isn't me trying to replace him with you, but this is me realizing that I thought I would never find someone that loves me like he did, but you already love me more than he ever could. And you obviously know that the feelings are reciprocated times 100.

He spoiled me with material things. I asked for a maple donut and he bought me a dozen. Every time he came to visit me he bought me a new James Avery charm. He knew I loved Christmas so he turned his living room into a winter wonderland.

He ruined me.

I thought these were acts of true love, and that if anyone truly loved me they had to do stuff like this. I expected material things, but not everyone can give how he did. I thought I needed things but I don't.

Now I get experiences that I'll always remember. I get to take pictures of places I never thought I'd go to. I get to fall in love with you over and over. I get to see you in places you love, and you get to see me explore new places. I never thought I would want to go to so many hockey games to see your favorite teams, yet here I am.

I used to think that I needed jewelry to have proof that you loved me. I never realized that it's the thought behind it, not the actual thing. You chose the 'love' ring because you want me to look at it every day, and be reminded how much you love me. He got me the crown ring to show that I'm a queen in his eyes, but where's the love in that?

I didn't control him, nor did I want to. He got me charms that were examples of things coming in our future. I get experiences with you. Things that can't be taken away until I'm old and lost all of my memory. These memories will always be there, they aren't pieces of silver that can be cut off of a bracelet and given back.

With him, I could only take it day by day, and we would just go for a month at a time and just hope that we made it through that month. You just bought us Taylor Swift tickets, and that's not until October because you know that we're going to be together then. With you, I don't have to question how long we're going to be together, but with him I did.