Looking back at all you said, it was really sweet.
You made me feel like the most important girl in the world. My favorite part of every day was talking to you because you encouraged me to have a smile that stretched from ear to ear-- even just by seeing your name light up on my phone. What I am realizing now is I relied too much on you for my happiness, when the only person I now know I can really count on is myself.
I loved hearing what you had to say to me, but I would have much rather of heard the truth than what you thought I wanted to hear. Yes, flattery is always nice and greatly appreciated; I know I loved hearing it. Ultimately, what I would have rather have heard was the truth.
You lead me to believe I was the only one and that one day soon you and I would become we. That was not your intentions and never what you planned.
When I was worried about being away at school you told me things like “none of the girls in school are you and you are who I want” which made me worry a little less. I should have worried the more because now you are dating someone at school who is not me. When I was worried what you and I would be, you told me things like “I have never really made it work with someone before but this time I'm committed.” This made me think you and I stood a chance, but I should have worried because you were really committed to someone else. When I was worried about her, you told me:
“What was between us is done and I am ready for this with you.”
This made me feel as if I was finally good enough for someone. When I was worried about caring too much too soon, you told me things like “I finally feel like I might have found someone who cares about me as much as I do them.” This made me think this feeling was a two-way street, but I should have worried because you really cared for someone else more despite knowing I cared about you just as much; probably even more, than you cared about me. Whenever I was worried about anything, you told me your two favorite words “I promise” which did not give me a worry in the world. As a matter of fact, it should have made me question everything because your promises were empty promises.
Basically, you knew all the right things to say. What you said was the truth, but it just was not the truth when it came to you and I. I truly believe that you meant what you said and I also believe that you were not sure who you really wanted.
A promise means to assure someone that something will happen. You promised me many things, most of which would never be. You promised to be there for me. You promised I was the one. You promised everything would be okay. You promised to give me the world. You promised we would go places and see things together. You promised you would never change. You promised we. You promised.
I have wasted too much time and too many tears on the thought of we, that I do not even need you in my life anymore. I realized that I do not want to hear what you have to say. I do not even want you.
Empty promises are all you gave me leaving me with a void that one day some other boy will be able to fill with his actions rather than his words. Ultimately, I wish you and her the best and I also wish me and him the best.