Dear Big,
This is a thank you. Thank you for being there for me to welcome me with open arms when I needed you most.
You came up to me at recruitment as we began chatting about Steven Universe. Immediately I was caught off guard by just how intently you were listening to what I had to say. You always listen and absorb what everyone has to say, and it made my day to know that my shy self was actually being heard. Later on in the night as I kept trying to speak up, you noticed and pulled me into the conversation. I can’t tell you how amazing that made me feel because instead of feeling like a ghost in the room, I felt wanted.
Throughout the week of events and more, you continued to be one of the main people that I seemed to gravitate towards. I always felt like a somebody around you, versus wishing I was just by myself. We connected with the random video games that I loved as a kid, and you introduced me to the artists that you love.
When the time came for secret bigs/littles, I had no idea it was you. I had some guesses as to who it was, but all in all I just knew that whoever was my big had my back. Every week, I’d receive a note or a little gift and it made me smile all night knowing that I had someone who was watching out for me. I remember gushing to you about how happy I was and how happy my big was already making me, and you always smiled as you replied something along the lines of “Awe, pal!”
Soon enough, I was spending time with you and your friends/my fellow siblings and I was feeling more and more a part of something. I felt wanted and I stopped feeling so invisible and alone on campus. Being a part of something that is so beneficial to me has given me motivation to succeed and has given me the confidence to live my life and be unapologetically myself.
When the time came for the reveal, I was nervous and excited to see who had been secretly making my days better once a week. I stood with only a yellow flag keeping us apart and I counted down with everyone as my heart began to pound before the flags were going to be dropped. The next thing I remember was seeing your face and not even knowing what to feel. I felt like I was going to cry, I was so happy and excited I couldn’t even process what was happening.
This may come off as too much, overreacting, or way over the top, but it’s just the truth. Not only have you changed my life, but so has this sorority. I feel like I’m actually a part of something, instead of feeling like an outsider. I want to immerse myself in as much as possible because, with each day as I learn more, I begin to feel even more on cloud nine in my own life. Thank you for being a reason I am here. Thank you for being a reason that I am happy.
Love,
Your (Newest) Little