An Open Letter To You, The Ones I've Met Along The Way

An Open Letter To You, The Ones I've Met Along The Way

Giving a little thanks and showing a little appreciation this holiday season.

To everyone I have met in my life,

As I am writing this, I’m almost asleep. I’m distracted by multiple YouTube tabs and news articles I neglected to read, and thinking about this year, and you, in a room warm enough to not shiver in these fall months.

Sometimes, I think I’m one of the loneliest people in the world. Surely, I have people praising me for my questions, and commenting on how kind I am, and I swing myself along with those who want to have a little bit of fun. On the inside, however, I’m an empty shell, like a glass without a liquid of choice, whether it be milk, water, coffee, or tea.

I’ve never been good at making friends; once I’ve made them, I frequently cling onto the ones I want to know, and unintentionally push away those I do not. To those who felt stifled by my never-ending neediness for attention or my unintentional behaviors which look like I don’t want to be there, I’m sorry. If there’s something I want to work on as I look at breaking away from the embrace of Seattle, it’s how to better interact with people and to create new bonds beyond the veneer of likability.

I also find myself becoming good friends - if not codependent - on my computer for entertainment. Throughout my entire life, I find it to be more “understanding” than others, as it doesn’t object to my actions, or possess emotions which turn me off. I could interact with it at any time, and it wouldn’t be annoying. However, it also adds up in bytes filled up with pictures and time lost when I could have done other things in life, like reading, writing, and interacting with you, my dear people!

Regardless, as the Thanksgiving holiday approaches, I just wanted to say thank you for existing in my life, whether it be through wild messages about politics or silly videos or inside jokes or playing card games or general support. A lot of my work comes within the depths of my mind, and I believe I can create without people.

A lot of my best memories are with the people I enjoy - one of my favorite memories from my senior year was during our retreat, where the class would bond together through activities, lunches, boat-construction, and free time. During the evening, there was a bonfire, where people roasted s'mores and told stories. And there was another group of people who played a spinning game - trying to get dizzy while looking at a specific object. I did get dizzy that night, and the smoke from the bonfire got into my eyes. But everyone was there and I enjoyed their company and we got to talk frequently.

Another memory of mine was when my mentor from freshman year invited me to Rick’s Ice Cream, a cheap place in Haggett, with some of her friends. I thought they would be people I saw and who I hung out with once, never to be seen again. However, they turned out to be the closest people I met while I was in college, and we talk about everything under the sun.

Even though we may not meet up as much anymore, I want to thank everyone for having the opportunity to open some of yourself to me. And I hope you enjoyed what I opened to you.

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19 Struggles Only Girls With The 'Looks Thin In Clothes But Not In A Bikini' Body Type Will Understand

A resounding 'thank you' to whoever decided one-pieces were cool again.

We grew up thinking the world was black and white. There's tall people and short people. There's old people and young people.

There's fat people and skinny people.

But as you get older, you realize there is a lot more in between those two ends of the spectrum than you ever thought possible. Especially when it comes to weight. And you do a lot more realizing if you're in an awkward position on that scale... Literally.

1. People always tell you to stop saying you are fat

Obviously, your friends SHOULD prevent you from talking negatively about yourself. And if you only saw you when you were fully dressed, you'd probably tell yourself to stop saying you're fat, too.

2. And are kind of surprised by your actual weight

You've definitely had friends who are shocked by the number on your scale because you can carry it pretty well when you are fully dressed.

3. Sometimes you feel like a catfish

Have you ever changed out of your super cute, flattering outfit and looked at yourself in the mirror and thought... Wow, am I lying to people?

4. But you know this is probably true for most people

When you're wearing clothes, typically the parts of a body that bring about insecurities (stomach, namely) are covered. No matter the body type, you realize most people are more comfortable in clothes than out of them.

5. Your confidence is often contingent on the month

November? Yep, won't need to be in shorts or a bikini for about 7-8 months. I am good to go.

February? I'll need to be in a bikini soon.. I could use some work.

6. You are thrilled by the one-piece bathing suit making a fashion come back

A resounding 'thank you' to whoever decided it was time to give one-pieces a try again. The stomachs of us in-between gals are appreciative.

7. Crop tops are 95% of the time not your top of choice

Yeah, okay, clothes are supposed to work for me and not against me.

8. You honestly don't understand jean sizes

I have fluctuated in weight a lot of my life, most recently losing 25lbs, and I still did not budge in jean sizes.

9. You wonder what other people think when they see you

Do other people see me as thin in clothing? Or fat in a bikini? What size am I perceived as?

10. Shopping is kind of a nightmare

Have you ever found about 27 items you liked, added the prices and thought, ah, it is going to be so tough to choose from all of these items? Only to go into the fitting room and realize only 2 of the items fit you well? Yep, me every single time I go to the store.

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11. You're thankful that at least you've got boobs

You can kind of hide them in clothes, and then let them steal the show away from your tummy in a swimsuit.

12. You have a hard time setting weight-loss goals

You aren't really sure how overweight you are (if you are, at all) and you don't want to be at an unhealthy weight on either side of the spectrum.

13. Body positivity comes and goes

There are days, weeks or even months when you feel like the most beautiful person on the planet, and then something happens (old jeans don't fit, you try on a new bathing suit, etc.) and you convince yourself that all of that confidence was wrong and undeserved.

14. You always try on the biggest size first

Either this or you're in a weird limbo between the smallest plus sizes size and the biggest generic sizes size.

15. Half of you knows every body is a bikini body, and half of you is convinced that yours is not

You know that your body is worthy of wearing whatever you want to wear, but looking at yourself and seeing what society (and you) sometimes deem as unattractive can eat away at that knowledge.

16. But you also know self-love and confidence are key to beauty

Even if you have to fake it, you know that feeling confident is going to carry you pretty far.

17. Being in a bathing suit is a constant game of readjustment

Okay, I am sitting. Pull the bottoms up to cover as much as my stomach as possible and the back of the top down to cover any back rolls.

18. You've avoided the mirror after a shower before

You know that you are just going to lose all the comfort you felt in your body during the day when you see yourself, so sometimes it is best to just avoid it.

19. Ultimately, you know your beauty is not contingent on what you are wearing

The goal for everyone should be to get to a point where it doesn't matter if you're in a snowsuit, a bathing suit or a birthday suit... You can see your beauty no matter what and feel confident despite what you have on. It'll take time, but falling in love with the way you look is worth it.

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To The Stressed Out College Student, Be Optimistic For Spring Quarter

I am looking forward to a productive spring quarter.


As a strenuous ten weeks of winter quarter is finally coming to a close, there is no better feeling than to be rewarded with a week of spring break. For most colleges and universities, this period of time is one of excitement and relief, as students approach a summer vacation that begins in May. Yet, for students with schedules revolving around the lovable (and often hatable) quarter system, it feels as though summer is far from our reach.

On a personal note, my previous ten weeks of classes have been bearable at best. I can proudly say that I have been counting down the days until spring break since our winter quarter began in January, though now that the week is finally approaching, I am reminded by the fact that I have yet another ten weeks of school in the near future. Interestingly enough, I have not started the countdown to June 18th quite yet. Instead, I am looking forward to a productive spring quarter that will leave me feeling energized and accomplished as I enter into a fresh summer.

I believe that the spring quarter withholds a sense of refreshment and newfound energy in comparison to that of fall and winter. Though students on the quarter system will end classes later than others, there is something to be said for spending days on campus when the warm weather finally breaks. Time seems to pass faster than it did in the dark and ominous weeks of winter quarter, and everyone seems to have a more positive attitude - as we can all see that vacation is approaching.

To the stressed out college student, be optimistic for spring quarter. Though tests and finals will still be ever-present, the completion of another ten weeks of classes is excellent motivation to achieve success and reward yourself within the coming months.

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