thank you, dad, hate, love
Start writing a post

Thank you for leaving, Dad.

This is not a hate letter. In fact, I love you in a way that I could never put into words. This letter is to thank you.

Thank you for leaving, Dad.

From the moment I came into this world, you were one of the first people I had contact with. One of the first people to lay their eyes on me and fall in love with everything about me. Growing up, you were my go-to, my everything, my daddy. We did everything and anything possible together. We were a dynamic duo.

But as time went on and I got older, things changed. As I look back, I remember all the things you taught me like how to ride a bike, how to tie my shoes, that I should always stay in school and to never let anyone push me around and to always stand up for yourself. But most importantly, you taught me to not let anyone give me less than I deserve. You always made sure I wasn't going to get hurt by a boy. That was your biggest thing. You were so protective of my heart but did you realize what you did in the end? Were you protecting my heart just so you could be the one to break it?

When you left, I was 12. I didn't know what it meant to miss someone who was still alive. I didn't know what it meant to forgive someone who was not sorry, or to accept an apology I never received. I did not know what it meant to have a broken heart. When you left, I felt a pain so raw and so deep that I did not know how I would pick up the broken pieces and live.

But now, ten years later, I want to thank you.

Today, I live in the knowledge that nothing and nobody could ever hurt me the way that you did. I love so openly and so fiercely because if my heart can heal from the damage you caused, it can heal from anything. Because of your absence, I am so acutely aware of those that are present. My heart overflows with gratitude for the people who have stayed. Because you made me weak, I can celebrate my strength, for I built my strength out of the broken pieces you left when you rocked my world like a hurricane.

Because I cannot celebrate you on Father's Day, I can celebrate my mother, who took on the role of mother and father when she did not have to, and then made it look easy.

What I can say is thank you. Thank you for showing me that although it is hard to not let people push me around and not let people give me less than I deserve, it is possible to get over the pain. Thank you for showing me I can't trust most men because the one man who always promised to be there and would never leave my side left me — flat out left me. Thank you for showing me that I can't trust people no matter how long I've known them and to always keep my guard up, because you never know who is going to hurt you. But most importantly, thank you for showing me how to live my life without you.

If you were even wondering — I'm doing great and perfectly fine without you.

Dad, when you broke my heart, I pieced it back together so much stronger than you ever could have.

So, thank you.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
the beatles
Wikipedia Commons

For as long as I can remember, I have been listening to The Beatles. Every year, my mom would appropriately blast “Birthday” on anyone’s birthday. I knew all of the words to “Back In The U.S.S.R” by the time I was 5 (Even though I had no idea what or where the U.S.S.R was). I grew up with John, Paul, George, and Ringo instead Justin, JC, Joey, Chris and Lance (I had to google N*SYNC to remember their names). The highlight of my short life was Paul McCartney in concert twice. I’m not someone to “fangirl” but those days I fangirled hard. The music of The Beatles has gotten me through everything. Their songs have brought me more joy, peace, and comfort. I can listen to them in any situation and find what I need. Here are the best lyrics from The Beatles for every and any occasion.

Keep Reading...Show less
Being Invisible The Best Super Power

The best superpower ever? Being invisible of course. Imagine just being able to go from seen to unseen on a dime. Who wouldn't want to have the opportunity to be invisible? Superman and Batman have nothing on being invisible with their superhero abilities. Here are some things that you could do while being invisible, because being invisible can benefit your social life too.

Keep Reading...Show less

19 Lessons I'll Never Forget from Growing Up In a Small Town

There have been many lessons learned.

houses under green sky
Photo by Alev Takil on Unsplash

Small towns certainly have their pros and cons. Many people who grow up in small towns find themselves counting the days until they get to escape their roots and plant new ones in bigger, "better" places. And that's fine. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought those same thoughts before too. We all have, but they say it's important to remember where you came from. When I think about where I come from, I can't help having an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for my roots. Being from a small town has taught me so many important lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.

Keep Reading...Show less
​a woman sitting at a table having a coffee

I can't say "thank you" enough to express how grateful I am for you coming into my life. You have made such a huge impact on my life. I would not be the person I am today without you and I know that you will keep inspiring me to become an even better version of myself.

Keep Reading...Show less
Student Life

Waitlisted for a College Class? Here's What to Do!

Dealing with the inevitable realities of college life.

college students waiting in a long line in the hallway

Course registration at college can be a big hassle and is almost never talked about. Classes you want to take fill up before you get a chance to register. You might change your mind about a class you want to take and must struggle to find another class to fit in the same time period. You also have to make sure no classes clash by time. Like I said, it's a big hassle.

This semester, I was waitlisted for two classes. Most people in this situation, especially first years, freak out because they don't know what to do. Here is what you should do when this happens.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments