I really do not know if you will ever read this, but this isn't because I hate you. This is because our break up and what you did to me taught me so much about myself and about other people. I want to thank you.

Ending a relationship with you is the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. This was lesson one. I can get through anything. I am so strong; never did I realize how strong I was. I think I may have come out even stronger. I battled some very bad days, days where I would not eat, days where I barely could get out of bed and days where I could barley drive half a mile down the road without bursting in to tears. Look where I am now. I am finally happy, after all these months, and I never thought I would say that.

Some people will keep taking and taking from you without ever giving back. This was lesson two; I am so very grateful I finally learned this. You are one of those people. Maybe you don’t do it all the time, maybe you don’t do it on purpose, and maybe you don’t even realize you are doing it. I gave to you endlessly, in various ways, rarely asking for anything other than for you to finally show me love and appreciation even in the smallest ways. I learned that I have a huge and giving heart for those I love, and with that I learned how emotionally and physically draining it is to give your all to someone in so many ways and barely get anything back.

I am the most important person in my life at all times. This was lesson three. For months I told myself you would change, you would come around eventually. For months I held on to the past you, pretending it was still the present you just because I wanted to keep you in my life. I thought I needed you in my life. How crazy is that? I thought I NEEDED you! I have never needed anyone, I have always been independent, and you know that. All those times I put my real happiness second and masked it with some fake happiness to keep you in my life. I never realized what I was doing to myself until our relationship was over. I am so happy I can now put myself first and I know to do that in my future, more stable relationships to come.

There are so many other things I learned, but overall, thank you for everything you taught me. Thank you for everything you did to me that made me that much stronger. Thank you for breaking my heart so I could learn how to put the pieces back together myself and live the life that is best for me. I mean all of that from the bottom of my heart.

I wish you the best.