The last month of summer has got me feeling a little blue for two main reasons. (By the way, blue means sad in this case.)
Summer is such a wonderful time to be with friends, work on improving myself, and get some money with low-key summer jobs. Letting go of summer will be disappointing because I have to acknowledge that fall semester is the beginning of my senior year of college. Facing my senior year of college means facing the fact I am not sure what I want to do after college.
Another reason summer has got me feeling a little blue is that it hasn't been the easiest summer. I have been working jobs that don't require a lot of thinking, and it's difficult to accept silence after an 18-credit spring semester. I've also been figuring out that oh-so-difficult-but-attainable fine line where I take care of myself before anyone else. Also, a lot of us Christian students struggle with rediscovering a prayer routine during the summer. My small group has been helping me feel spiritually filled this summer, and I am so grateful for them.
This year has taught me how I like to take care of myself. I like to take naps, watch Marvel movies, surround myself with a warm blanket, and more.
What's really important to remember is that feeling sad (on a large scale or small scale) is only temporary. Don't make any huge life decisions while you are lonely or feeling desperate for entertainment.
Here comes the funny story.
I had just started my summer job working on campus the week BEFORE Memorial Day. It is a simple job – I work on repainting the dorm rooms on my university's campus. However, my boss and coworker were both taking the Friday off before Memorial Day. I also knew that my roommate was leaving town that Friday. Therefore, I knew I would be very lonely and super bored until she returned Monday night.
I made a bad decision to get a third job at a performing arts center in town that weekend. My reasons for it were based on poor thinking. Although I had more than enough time that specific weekend to work the job, I did NOT have time for it in the future summer months. But I signed up for the job anyway, promising I was available when I was not.
It took me about two weeks to quit the job I shouldn't have signed up for. But I did it, and I'm proud of myself. Yay me!
This story now belongs under "life lesson I'm slightly embarrassed by (LOL)." It is quite funny, though. I don't always make the best decisions and that was a good reality check for me.
Even with the things I've mentioned that got me feeling that summertime sadness, the color I've associated this summer with has been yellow. Yellow represents joy, sunshine that plants need for growth, and the warmth I'll miss when winter comes back. All of this happiness stems from my faith in Jesus Christ and the true friends I've found through this faith.
I hope you make the last month of summer fun. And if some moments are blue, it is only a temporary feeling.
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