Passion, an intense, overmastering feeling or conviction; a strong liking or desire for some activity, object or concept. Passion, outbursts of happiness, the feeling you get when you are so excited that you're about to combust of happy tears just thinking about experiencing or doing it. Passion, a feeling that is so desired and welcomed, that you lose it.

I love writing and being apart of Odyssey. It's been a great way to share my thoughts or things I like to discuss. But, over these past few months since around May, it's felt more like a drag to come up with something interesting to write about each week. And if you know me, you know I LOVE writing about different haunted places throughout the US/world, but not even writing about that has been fun for me lately. Which honestly makes me sad because I love that stuff

I keep telling myself, "Oh, I'll write this article Sunday" which then turns into me telling myself on Wednesday, "I'll write this article after I'm home from work at 4." But, it's 6 p.m. on Wednesday night, I have about four tabs open along with my empty draft because I have no interest in fulfilling my task. I tell myself, "It's because it's summer" or "work has me strung out." I keep making an excuse for my lack of involvement.

Like, what kind of shit is that to say or think about something that I'm passionate about doing?

My lack of involvement hasn't been out of laziness, or work. It's because my passion for writing and inspiration is at an all-time low. *Que the song*

And I should have said something and asked for a break in June and July but I didn't want to not turn content in because I felt like I was letting the team and myself down.

And I'm not trying to sit here and make up an excuse for my lack of involvement because there is no excuse for it.

I love writing and researching and being able to share it and connect with people from all over. In high school, thanks to my publications class, I knew I wanted to go into Journalism. Do I know what kind of writing I want to get into after college? No, but I still got time to figure that out.

So why is it so hard to bring myself to write about anything since I'm so passionate about doing it for the rest of my life? Is it because it's summer and my lack of motivation is just down due to having no schedule? Or is it because my passion for it is diminishing?

So, here's to hoping I get my shit together and start getting things done and turned in on time. Here's to hoping I write about something or at least remind myself why I'm so passionate about writing for the rest of my life.