It has become somewhat of a trend for people to justify being in a toxic relationship by believing that it's passionate.
It is a misconception that destroys people. Toxic people have the full ability to shatter a person, and there is nothing passionate about destroying someone. In a twisted way, people crave the excitement. They are in it for the thrill. What they don't understand, is that when you play with fire, you will get burned. It is inevitable. You are not an exception, you cannot change a toxic person, and your efforts to do so are in vain because that person doesn't want to change their ways for you. You see it as your emotions catching fire in the most exhilarating way, but you are actually flirting with the flames that threaten to set your entire life ablaze, burning you, everything you previously loved and enjoyed, your sense of your self worth. It burns down all that you are into several different unrecognizable pieces.
You know that you will get hurt, but you choose to believe you won't. Or, you accept any outcome just to be a part of their world for however long you can keep up with their head games. You sacrifice all previous notions of common sense, logic, reason, and strength as you succumb to their manipulative head games, the games you believe are rooted out of intense passion. If you're wrapped up in a person that entangles you into their web of lies, head games, and emotional distress, keep reading for the reality check you need to hear even though I know you don't want to face it. Why? Because you don't want to be done playing with fire. Plain and simple. You love it.Step away from the flames. It's not okay, and it's not going to be okay until you realize that you will either lose him or lose yourself.
For some absolutely illogical and insane reason, a toxic person can look directly at you and tell you that they will destroy you, and you will still stay. You will.
You glamorize your life with this person. You are addicted to the excitement and the rush of it all. The person makes you feel the highest of highs and the absolute lowest of lows. The highs are unbelievable. Your heart feels like it could burst, emotions run high, and your head is consumed with this person. There is an unbelievably strong attraction and passionate acts among those lines, but they aren't out of love. It appears to be passion but it's poisonous in all its ways. It kills you every time you think it completes you.
It deepest darkest depths. It doesn't strip you of your sense of self-worth. It doesn't destroy you.
Destroying someone isn't sexy, it isn't passionate, it isn't love... it's sick.
Don't let the highest of highs manipulate you into thinking that it makes up for the lows. It doesn't make it okay. The cold hard truth is, is that if you're consumed with a toxic person, you're not okay at all. You're so far from being okay that you have no concept of what feeling stable or true happiness even is or feels like. How you're living is not okay. You're fighting for his attention, you're competing with another girl, you're killing yourself to be his everything. He's controlling you like his little puppet, and you're letting him.
Manipulation isn't an act of passion, it's a heartless act.He doesn't love you. He doesn't value you, or treasure you. His words may say otherwise, but that's because he knows exactly what to say to keep you right where he wants you. He knows he has the power to destroy you, and he will. Don't accept that as your fate. Don't fool yourself into believing that your time with him is worth the agony of being shattered by him.
It's not worth it. It is not okay. Don't sacrifice all that you are. Don't fear the regret of losing him, fear the complete and total loss of yourself and everything you care about.