Growing up, I was always the person people would forget about or just not care about. I was last chosen in gym class, the one without a partner when teachers told students to partner up and the one people just generally ignored. Life has been pretty lonely because of it. I've had lots of great friends along the way but I still had plenty of moments where I was alone because people didn't think to include me.
I've been excluded so often that when someone actually thinks to include me, I feel out of place and like they're just jokingly including me. I thought there was something wrong with me that drove everybody away but that can't be the case unless people who actually include me just do it out of pity which I'd like to think isn't the case. I'd like to think that some people are good.
I know I'm not the only one who is excluded from everything. I know there are people who don't like me and don't want to hang out with me and I'm okay with that but when seemingly almost everybody does it, I know that something isn't right. I've even asked people what I should improve about myself so I can make long lasting friendships and get people to want to include me in activities. The majority of them told me there was nothing to improve and to just keep being me. I appreciate the honesty but it doesn't exactly help me. Others who experience the same thing probably also want to improve themselves so people want to include them.
I am tired of being invisible. I am tired of being someone that very few people seem to care about. If they can't think to include me then they are not worth it. The people that actually care about me, thank you for being great friends. At least some people like to include me.