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Rachel McMillin

Fr tho... I do owe you an apology. And I ain't good at this shit, so I know you bout only gone take it half heartedly, but before I apologize, I wanna thank you. For putting up with me and all the craziness that came along. We haven't been together long, but I appreciate you more than you know. You're the only thing that brings me an ounce of peace. I'm sorry I'm super needy sometimes. And I'm sorry I was super broken when you came into my life, and for all the bullshit that brought into yours. I'm sorry you always have to see that side of me and barely get the good. I can't put it into words how good you made me feel tho. And I'm sorry my insecurities caused us to have a big argument. I should've stayed and heard you out, but chose to run from my problems instead. I'm good at that. 😕 I should've apologized sooner, but this voice in the back of my head said there's no point because you just gone play me anyways. I have my doubts about you all the time, because I know I'm a whole lot to handle, and I be feeling like you know you can do so much better than me and you gone get tired of me. Ain't nobody ever stuck around, so I'm used to everybody leaving. It's just a waiting game. So instead of figuring out how to fix shit, I just push people away knowing they just gone leave eventually anyways. I'm sorry I have none of the qualities you want. I'm sorry I'm bad at absolutely everything, and shut down the way I do. I have too many demons I don't want to face, and I realize you just trying to help me get over shit when you put pressure on those type of things. I'm sorry I'm not changing everything as fast as you would like, and I really do appreciate it when you acknowledge the fact that I'm trying. I don't want to lose you because I really do like you, but if that's what you chose to do, I completely understand why. I wouldn't stick around in this madness either. With all that being said... thank you, fr, for being here so far and doing what you could. You mean a whole lot to me, and I'm really trying to work on me so I don't have to lose you for good. I love you Bradlee.

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