I always had an image in my head of what a sorority would be like. I always thought of the movies "House Bunny,” and “Legally Blonde.” Both of the movies have women who make a bond and become tight like sisters.

Although the movies portrayed a Sorority bond, from my experience, Sorority life was far from any movie. I had many thoughts about joining a sorority. I honestly wasn't sure if I would fit in and I wasn't sure if I would find my “home away from home.” It took a lot of courage for me to even go through the recruitment process.

I'm a very type B, shy person. I don't open up to people easily, so having to meet a bunch of girls, all in a one-time frame, was not easy. It took a lot out of me to get out of my comfort zone. But, guess what I did? I did it. I joined a sorority.

I did it because I didn't want to be a 30-year-old woman who thinks she missed out on some college experience because she didn't join a Sorority.I didn't want to regret missing out on something that I had an opportunity to do. So I decided to join a sorority.

I was so excited, so thrilled to be getting out of my comfort zone.I wanted to do this for myself. I wanted to see if could do this.I wanted to push myself.I was tired of hearing people bash Sorority girls which is why I wanted to see for myself what it was all about.

I wanted to see if it was what people said it was, or if it was different.I wanted to meet new people.I wanted to create relationships/friendships.I was ready to be committed because I honestly had nothing else going on.I thought if I did this for myself I could do anything.I was ready for something new in my life and I was ready to have a big family and be able to call someone up if I needed to.

After I joined a Sorority, I was thrilled! I felt like I found my home with this Sorority and I was happy to hear that they wanted me and that they remembered me in some shape or form. It made me feel good about myself.

The first semester of the Sorority was amazing, I met so many girls and I got close to a couple of them.I was literally having the time of my life. Everyone was so nice and everyone seemed to get along so well.

But then the next semester, something changed, something changed that made the Sorority hard to love anymore. All the people I made friends with and was close with left the Sorority. I felt so alone in the Sorority that I once loved. Everyone else already was in their own little group, own clique. I tried to make new friends, but it just didn't end up working out.

The Sorority no longer felt like home anymore. From my experience and observation, I basically gathered, that once you weren't new anymore, the girls just didn't care about you anymore. They didn't need to impress you because you were already in the Sorority. They didn't have to act like they liked you because you already had a big. It's like after they recruited you, they were done with you. They had to recruit new girls and that's all that were on their minds, to please new girls that will fade away after they are committed.

I just found myself wondering why I even wanted to join anymore. Don't get me wrong, some people are meant to be in a Sorority. Some Sororities are different at different universities. Perhaps I joined the wrong sorority, perhaps it would have been different if I chose a different school or a different sorority to call my home.

I originally liked the sorority I joined because everyone was different and unique that I felt like I fitted in. It didn’t feel like I had to try to be something I wasn’t. But the Sorority went downhill after the first semester I joined. They got new people on the board that changed everything I knew. People were different and the aroma itself was different.

I tried to love it like I once did, however, the love faded once the spark was gone. I'm not trying to bash the sorority or anything because I did enjoy it one time or another. But I realized that the sorority life just wasn't for me, personally. And I'm glad I had the opportunity and experience to be in one. I don't regret any of it.