I know it's hard right now, and you feel as if you'll never truly be happy. You feel like your world is falling apart and all you can do is stand there and watch. You feel empty and scared. You aren't okay, but you look like it. You paint on a smile, dress in fine clothes, and may even put a little pep in your step before you walk out of your room.
You put yourself aside, so maybe you can put a smile on someone else's face. You let people walk all over you, and then feel sorry for those who hurt you. You may feel put down by others and what they say, but you don't say anything because you don't want anyone else to feel the way you do. You want everyone to like you, even when you know it's better to just steer away from them. You bottle everything up, so no one knows how you truly feel.
You're tired. You're tired of feeling this way. You're tired of faking your way through life. You're tired of having to put up so many walls, and being so careful not to catch any feelings. You're tired of the person you have become.
You're scared. You've been hurt before, maybe more than once. You don't let anyone in because you fear they won't stay. You want so badly to be happy, but you're scared you'll ruin it. You fear that you'll run off the only good thing that has ever happened to you. You're scared that it'll all come tumbling down, with just one word.
Let's face it: when someone is mean to you, it's usually because they're jealous of you and/or they are so insecure that they don't even see it. I know it is hard to see it right now, but later in life you will realize how wonderful you actually are. Don't settle for anyone, know your worth! Honestly, settling for someone who doesn't deserve you or doesn't treat you the way you deserve to be treated, only leads to your destruction. So, if you want to cry, cry. If you want to scream, scream.
But, do not let anyone tell you that you are not worth it!
Wanna know a secret? You are beautiful, with or without makeup. You are strong. You are better than this. You can and will overcome it, if you believe you can. There are other girls, just like you, all over the world that are going through this with you. You are not alone. There are people in your life that care about you, and that would do anything they possibly could for you. Those people that hurt you aren't worth you crying over. You should never let anyone make you feel less important than you are. You are a queen, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
One day, you will be happy. One day, you will look back on this and realize how much time you wasted worrying about people who don't even matter. One day, you will have people in your life that make you feel so blessed that you may even forget this. So for now, my advice to you is to stay strong and to always remember there is a rainbow coming after this storm. Remember, you are a strong, beautiful, amazing girl who deserves the world and don't settle for anything less.