It feels like you've heard it a thousand times; the whole, "When you get older, you'll be best friends," but at eighteen and twenty-three those words haven't come true, and you've both accepted it. You won't be each other's maid of honors or children's godmothers. After you both leave the house, you'll only talk when necessary and at family events. How'd this happen? The answer is: gradually.

You both want to be each other's best friend and guiding light. You started as a toddler playing dolls with your big sister and always being stuck with Ken, but you were okay with that because you got to spend time with your big sister. Eventually, you hit elementary school, and your personality comes out more. It becomes clear you and your sister are polar opposites in every way possible. You two still try to connect but the only thing you can agree on is that you have nothing in common with each other. Like absolutely nothing; from hobbies to humor, there is nothing you two find common ground on. It's sad at first, especially when you see your friends and their sisters living in harmony. Your teen years are plagued with physical fights and words that could cut. You both just want the other person to change, but how can a person change their entire self?

Finally, you hit semi adulthood and just become accustomed to this weird agreement you have made with each other. Two people who share parents but share no connection. You've replaced each other with friends who like the same things, laugh at the same jokes, and have similar views on life. Even with amazing friends, you still wonder "what if" when it comes to your relationship with your sister. What if we tried harder? What if we had accepted each other more? What if we had just stopped fighting? The past will always be full of what ifs but I know the future won't hold any sister bonding time or revelations. Some people, even family, don't click and in our case, we just happened to be sisters. This doesn't mean we lack love for each other; We just lack compatibility. We'll always be there for the big moments but never for the small victories, and I'm okay with that.