If you want the real truth, I have never been with someone during the holidays. I have not had to buy a special gift for anyone. So my wallet is more full, which is a good thing. But I am wondering if there is any other part to my life that could also be more full.

There is part of me that wants to jump into a relationship during this holiday season and then there is a part of me that just wants to do nothing. Nothing as in watching Netflix all day every day, yes I said it. So yes, it would be nice to share the holidays with someone special someday.

Its not that I am opposed to having a relationship with someone during this joyous season, but I just want to get to know them first. I am in no rush to figure out my whole life right now. It would be nice to take things slow with the right person by doing fun holiday activities like driving around seeing Christmas lights or decorating ginger bread houses (Hey Bae, start taking notes for next year).

The holidays should be a special time to spend with family. But it can get hard with family sometimes because they are all coupled up for the most part (Congrats Lyss & Ry Ry). So it does make me wonder what having a relationship during this time would be like. Would it make me happy? Would I be fulfilled? I guess I will eventually know these answers at some point in my life, just not right now and that is okay.

But in the meantime, I am just going to enjoy the holiday season with my friends and family. They are all very special to me in their own way, I do not have favorites. I love them with all equally. I love them with of my heart and I cannot wait to love somebody else with all of my heart someday!