I don't remember much from the beginning of my senior year of high school. Everything was just a flurry of college applications and trying to take every moment in. As I get ready for my senior year of college, it's the same deal. I'm applying for grad school while trying to fathom how I'm going to leave my undergraduate career behind. Even though I'm going through the same motions as high school, it feels totally different.

Leaving high school didn't affect me that much. I knew the good friends I had made would still be there for me, and I had already come to terms with leaving the sports and clubs I was a part of.

So why is graduating from college so hard?

There's just a feeling about my undergrad years that I feel like I won't capture later in life.

Even though I know these friends will be with me for years to come, there are so many things I'm leaving behind that I just won't find anywhere else. In high school, I knew that I was moving on to a place where I would find just as many (if not more) things I loved to be a part of. I may not be finishing school just yet, but I'm one step closer to that full-fledged adult stage of life, and that stage doesn't include half the stuff I'm doing now.

So like my senior year of high school, I'm taking in every moment. As much as it breaks my heart to leave the things that I'm a part of at the end of this year, I know that my college experience would have been much worse off without them.

I'm slightly in denial about graduating in May, but I've got almost nine months to come to terms with that. In the meantime, I'm not wasting a single moment.