All I Want For Christmas Is... Some Serious Self-Care

All I Want For Christmas Is... Some Serious Self-Care

Seasonal depression... who asked for you?


I can't be the first one to admit I hate the winter months. I blame this wholeheartedly on the weather. And from, that I blame my mood. And because of that falls my lack of energy, motivation, pretty much everything. Thus introducing seasonal depression (can also be described as seasonal affective disorder).

Seasonal depression by definition is defined as a type of depression related to changes in the season, usually beginning and ending at the same time every year.

Now I'm no health expert, nor am I clinically diagnosed with anything; however, I'm one to say we are pretty in tune with our own bodies and own emotions that we know what we feel when we feel it.

I am in no way trying to invalidate or offend anyone who is actually clinically diagnosed with depression or seasonal depression or anything of that sort! However, this is what I'm feeling and we're just gonna run with that.

I was listening to a podcast this morning (ironically titled "How to Make December Count") and she, being Kalyn Nicholson, described her newfound definition of depression as being seen as "deep rest" that's why it's called "depressed." It's our bodies way of being in a deep sense of rest or need for it. And because of that, I seriously feel seasonal depression hitting me hard this year.

I'm aching for more daylight and higher energy levels. It seems no matter how hard I try, I'm still lacking in those daily needs.

It's been proven (as explained in the podcast) that sunlight does improve our daily lives. Whether it be through Vitamin D, boost the serotonin, or literal recognition of time of day. And I'm aching for it!

I just have to be thankful I don't live in somewhere like northern Alaska where there's literally only three hours of daylight.

Because of all this, it seems that all I want for Christmas is… some serious self-care.

I'm the first to admit and push the sense of self-care and taking care of your body mentally and physically, yet for some reason, I can't listen to my own advice once November and December roll around.

Seriously, I went to bed at 8 p.m. the other night and slept for 11 hours when I should have been studying but do I regret it? Absolutely not. Did it help my mental mood? Maybe, maybe not, that's still to be determined.

I don't know if I have this heavy onset of seasonal depression because I'm in one of my tougher quarters of college, my lack of passion for daily desires (that's a story for another time), or my sense of knowing who I am so much more this year. I know who I am, I know my moods, so I knew this feeling and these darker months were going to be inevitable, yet still, here we are!

I feel like regardless of what negativity I'm giving off to the world, I still need to offer some sort of positives when feeling like this. Because let's be real, I'm allowing myself to wallow and sleep away these darker afternoons when I'm not slammed with homework or responsibilities, but I'm still trying to do things to avoid this.

I mean, I'm always one to say that the cold is only fun if there's snow and when you live in a state where all we seem to get is rain, not snow, you can see where all my fun goes (don't get me wrong, I love the rain but…snow soon please, OK?)

For lack of better term, some ways to seriously give yourself some self-care when seasonal depression is hitting harder than most seasons:

1. Grasp hard onto your passions and desires and do not let go.

I know I said I've lacked desire for my passions lately, and that's true, but try to dig deep into the roots of why you love what you love. Remember why you feel in love with those things in the first place.

2. Reorganize, rearrange, revamp.

Simply put, a lot of times your space has an effect on your moods. Feeling off? Move things around and reorganize anything and everything you can. Pull out those boots and that jacket buried deep in the back of your closet and just embrace it.

3. Give yourself a routine.

Getting out of a slump when you're feeling absolutely off can be one of the hardest things. But finding a new routine or an old routine and trying hard to stick to that can seriously increase your mood or desire for "normal" things again.

4. Literally self-love the sh*t out of yourself.

Buy yourself flowers! Light up a candle! Draw yourself a bubble bath every night! Anything out of the norm (or completely in the norm) to make yourself feel "normal" again will flip you right back on track for feeling that way again.

Alas, you are only in control of what you're feeling and you are only in control of what can be fixed. Fixed being said lightly because that would imply that something is "wrong" with you and that's never the case.

Self-care and self-love can be done at any time of year, but it seems like this year I'm needing it a little stronger than other times, especially when feeling out of sorts. Use this time as much as any to just care for yourself extra, extra, extra.

Oh, but at least we have spring to look forward to if nothing else at all, right?

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30 Things I'd Rather Be Than 'Pretty'

Because "pretty" is so overrated.

Nowadays, we put so much emphasis on our looks. We focus so much on the outside that we forget to really focus on what matters. I was inspired by a list that I found online of "Things I Would Rather Be Called Instead Of Pretty," so I made my own version. Here is a list of things that I would rather be than "pretty."

1. Captivating

I want one glance at me to completely steal your breath away.

2. Magnetic

I want people to feel drawn to me. I want something to be different about me that people recognize at first glance.

3. Raw

I want to be real. Vulnerable. Completely, genuinely myself.

4. Intoxicating

..and I want you addicted.

5. Humble

I want to recognize my abilities, but not be boastful or proud.

6. Exemplary

I want to stand out.

7. Loyal

I want to pride myself on sticking out the storm.

8. Fascinating

I want you to be hanging on every word I say.

9. Empathetic

I want to be able to feel your pain, so that I can help you heal.

10. Vivacious

I want to be the life of the party.

11. Reckless

I want to be crazy. Thrilling. Unpredictable. I want to keep you guessing, keep your heart pounding, and your blood rushing.

12. Philanthropic

I want to give.

13. Philosophical

I want to ask the tough questions that get you thinking about the purpose of our beating hearts.

14. Loving

When my name is spoken, I want my tenderness to come to mind.

15. Quaintrelle

I want my passion to ooze out of me.

16. Belesprit

I want to be quick. Witty. Always on my toes.

17. Conscientious

I want to always be thinking of others.

18. Passionate

...and I want people to know what my passions are.

19. Alluring

I want to be a woman who draws people in.

20. Kind

Simply put, I want to be pleasant and kind.

21. Selcouth

Even if you've known me your whole life, I want strange, yet marvelous. Rare and wondrous.

22. Pierian

From the way I move to the way I speak, I want to be poetic.

23. Esoteric

Do not mistake this. I do not want to be misunderstood. But rather I'd like to keep my circle small and close. I don't want to be an average, everyday person.

24. Authentic

I don't want anyone to ever question whether I am being genuine or telling the truth.

25. Novaturient

..about my own life. I never want to settle for good enough. Instead I always want to seek to make a positive change.

26. Observant

I want to take all of life in.

27. Peart

I want to be honestly in good spirits at all times.

28. Romantic

Sure, I want to be a little old school in this sense.

29. Elysian

I want to give you the same feeling that you get in paradise.

30. Curious

And I never want to stop searching for answers.
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Christmas Of Remembrance Series: My Last Letter

Christmas time is not about the gifts... It is about something far, far more special.


Dear Reader,

Thank you for your time.

This is a series that I have dedicated to those I have loved and lost. It was merely a thought, then an idea, and now a realized creation. Christmas time… all winter really is a hard time for me. It holds this duality in my life of being both my favorite and also my least favorite and difficult time of year. It has been that way for years now.

In a way, this series aids my closure and healing further, and it allows me to tell my story in a way that, to me, is less scary (one of the many great facets of this platform). It was never my intention to write this in order to reach people, or encourage people, or serve as an inspiration to anyone. This was for me and only me. No one else. But, if these pieces of writing do impact someone, somewhere, or make them feel encouraged or inspired in some way or another, or just simply make them feel, then I hope you have enjoyed them. If I can make someone feel, then I guess I have done my job.

The life of an artist is often an uncertain one. The life of a human is a trying one. But life is a journey, and all journeys have their trials. Their tests. Their triumphs and rewards. And they all have their losses. What matters most is what you make of all of it. What lessons you learn. What changes you make. What life you create for yourself. What art you create because of it all. It can be very, very hard. But it can all be glorious at the same time.

At the heart of this series, my words, there is this deep and valuable belief of mine: Christmas (or the Winter Holiday that you may celebrate) is so much more about presents and cooking and shopping and all that other bullshit… it is about family.

The family that is related by blood. The family that surrounds your heart. Your Mom. Your brother. Your dearest friends. The bonds that make life valuable. Worth living. These bonds are soulful bonds, ones that are far more special than any mere trivial object. So… be with them. Forgive. Forget. Heal. Mend what is broken. Reassemble what has been shattered. And stop worrying so much. Laugh together. Cry together. Heal on another. Heal together. And may your new days be better, brighter, and full of love.

Happy Holidays.


A song for you...

"Sense of Home" — Harrison Storm / YouTube

If you liked this series, I invite you to check out my previous article below…

To My Fellow 孤, The Sons Without Fathers On Father’s Day

As well as this article by a fellow creator…

What You Learn Losing A Parent So Young

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