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I'm Seeking His Kingdom, Not Theirs

I don't always have to have it all together and neither do you.

Hannah Adams
Nov 14, 2017
UNC Charlotte
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I'm Seeking His Kingdom, Not Theirs
Amelia Anglin

I am a people pleaser. A person who wants others to be happy about the decisions she makes. A person who can’t learn to say no.

I can be a funny person. A person who loves to make people laugh. A person who enjoys having a good time.

But sometimes I am a confusing person. I have trouble expressing my feelings to those closest to me.

I worry about things. Small things, big things, and everything in between. I let the things that worry me interfere with the way I live my life.

Sometimes the things I say are taken the wrong way, a way I did not intend. I can be rude. I can be hurtful.

Sometimes I struggle to be a good friend. I don’t always see how the things I do, or the things happening around me affect the people in my life.

Sometimes I don’t know how to process the things that people tell me. And when I do have time to process, I don’t always understand.

And yet all of the time, I wish I had it all together. That I was the person people could confide in - the perfect friend. The perfect girlfriend. The perfect sister. The perfect daughter. But that’s not reality. And it never will be. The mind is a complicated thing, and life is hard. I struggle every day with all of these different thoughts rolling around in my head, hoping that someday everything will make sense. I don’t have the answers, and I probably never will.

But I have hope, and a heavenly Father who knows me better than anyone on this earth ever could. I don’t have to have it all together. Or have all the answers. Because I am commanded in Matthew 6 to “Seek first His kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” I am told to run after, and pursue the only thing in life that will satisfy me most. The rest that He has in store for me will follow. It may not always be perfect, but it will be purposeful. Because only He will be able to provide me with the peace that I need to get through today and every day.

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