I don’t know if y'all have ever had those weeks where it feels like there is never a second of rest, never a moment to yourself, and never tasks not to be done, but I think I have been having one for a month.

I am drained. (More like my drain is so clogged I need literal Drano poured into my life.)

I am exhausted.

I sound like a chain smoker who has a fur ball.

I am unorganized.

I am frazzle brained.

I am unorganized.

Writing this article is probably the first time I have sat down and I mean slouching, under a blanket, butt imprint on the couch sitting, and that is crazy.

I have been going and going and going and I almost feel like there is no more levers/pulleys/buttons/switches to make me go anymore. It is as if they have all been worn out or short circuited from others expectations, or my expectations, or the expectations I think other people have. So in return I feel like the Wii Remote that dies right in the middle of “Hey Ya” on Just Dance 2.

This time period of being drained and fully poured out often leads us to have this thought of the end of it all, the moment we get to have a nice comfy sit on our couch, “the light at the end of the tunnel” if you will. I will be honest I have these thoughts often. I think, “Oh, just get through this week and then I can stop stressing out”, or “I don’t think I can make it through the day because I am so tired that I just wish I was in my bed”. All valid.

The thing is while we are pining after this ending or waiting for our restful time to come, we are missing the present. We are forgetting how much we also need to be poured into. We are not acknowledging that the light is already here and it doesn't have to JUST be at the end of the tunnel.

God has given us Himself. He has given us His son. He has given us the Holy Spirit.

All three of these things are important because they allow us to carry around a pal at all times. A pal that is a shapeshifter into a crutch, a voice, a shot of espresso, or whatever we need in that moment. A pal who came to Earth and has already experienced every pain imaginable.

So are you exhausted? Hungry? Broken-hearted? Missing someone? Physically broken?

No matter what pain or hardship that is draining you, Jesus has felt it. He lived through them all on the cross. He took that pain that day so that today you would not feel alone or ever have to be alone again.

So let's stop looking for "the light at the end of the tunnel". Instead let us lift our heads up and bask in the light already coming down at us and get freaking sunburnt by it because I am ready to stand without my usual Water Babies SPF 50 in that light.