Now that finals week is here, I have been finding myself getting more frustrated and confused as ever. This entire year has been a whirlwind: move-in day, Saturdays full of football, homesickness, family issues and FINALS. Last semester, I was a confident and excited student, eager to actually attend classes and spend time with friends. Now, I often seclude myself and have to fully convince myself to attend classes. My grades are slipping way too much and the worst thing is: I'm questioning whether or not vet school is right for me. What happened?
I always did well in school. I never got below an A- in any of my classes and hardly studied. When I got accepted to MSU, it was the best day of my life (or so I thought). However, actually coming here had a whole different vibe. Every single time I had gone on campus before, I was so excited that I couldn't contain myself. Now, walking around campus (especially in the winter) just doesn't feel right. I'm not sure if my seasonal affective disorder just was way worse than usual- or if I just felt like missing out on things.
But, as I go into the final week of my first year of college, I have to remember my goals. I have been wanting to become a veterinarian since I was 5. I loved animals and wanted to make a career out of it. I knew MSU had one of the best programs so I began coming to camps that would surround me with professionals in my major. I still want to be involved with animals and my goals still surround that. I am planning to take a lesser load next spring (I think that might help because fall went so much better) and branch out. I need to take my own advice on happiness and truly enjoying life, since it's the only one I have.
If you are feeling this way too, I understand exactly how you feel. It'll get better <3.
And to the girl I was a couple months ago, I'm getting back to you.