When I was in middle school I had my first boyfriend. Or I guess that's what you could call him. He passed me a note in math class one day that said "will you go out with me? check yes or no." lol, maybe not a real relationship, but it was real in my eyes as a 12-year-old girl who was getting to the point where I had crushes on boys. Anyways, everything was going so great. We held hands during break time and we always sat beside each other at lunch! But then one day the jerk passed the SAME note to a girl in gym. Oh no. This did not go over well. Needless to say, we broke up and from then on I decided boys were all a waste of my time and I didn't need them to be happy.
Okay, so yes I did have a few relationships in high school. but nothing to brag about and definitely not anything that was destined to be 'forever.' But I haven't really had a long-lasting relationship in a while, and I am COMPLETELY satisfied with that. Not saying girls who are in committed relationships are dumb, no, claps for you and I wish you the best. That life just isn't the one I desire at the moment. I'd rather go out to the bar on the weekends with all my best girlfriends and flirt with the boy in my theatre class that's standing in the corner of the bar because I can and I have every right to! College is the time to experiment around and see what exactly you like and dislike about guys. I even make checklists for the types of men I want, because I'm very picky and I don't want to settle... you can judge me.
The thing is, I am getting to the point in my life where I am just beginning to find myself and love me for who I am and everything I am becoming. I don't really have much time to give to anyone else yet. At least not enough time to have a 100 percent dedicated relationship. I mean, at my age, you either get married or you break up. I'm positive i'm no where near ready to marry right now, and who wants to go through a heartbreak and eat their weight in chocolate when they have spring break right around the corner? Not me. Thanks though. Plus, most of the guys at my age are worried about dancing with as many chicks at the bar as they can or whose number they got last night. I can guarantee you their priorities are not set on memorizing all my favorite things to eat and watching Nicholas Sparks movies with me on a Saturday night. Don't get me wrong, i'm not scared of commitment, but I'm just not ready to settle down with someone right now. I don't feel the need to check my phone every 5 minutes to see if my boyfriend has replied to my last text.. And let's face it, I'm probably not what some would consider 'girlfriend material' right now anyways. I can't cook, and I have trouble remembering my homework each night, so I probably wouldn't be very good at it anyways.
College is the time to be young, wild, and free (cheesy, I know) and to make many, many mistakes. The good new is we always learn from our mistakes, and sometimes they make pretty sick memories. And with that being said, I am completely satisfied with being single for now. Maybe one day my prince charming will come along and he'll be everything I ever dreamed of, but until then, I will continue to go out on the weekends and be slightly reckless with all of my girls and experience my youth to it's fullest before I decide to settle down.